Monday, February 08, 2016
I found out yesterday that a friend had killed himself. The problem was I did not find out at the time, but found out just this week. He died more than 6 month ago, and I had been a little out of touch with him. I am so devastated by the news. I am working through this. I contacted a mutual friend who gave me some insight, and It was good to be okay feeling my grief. We forget to give ourselves permission to feel our feelings. We usually bury them by eating something that feels good on our tongue. Then today another shoe dropped when I found out my teenage daughter has been lying and deceiving me about going out on dates. She has asked me to trust her implicitly since we had a problem last spring with her, but frankly, she will have to earn my trust again . I have not turned to food, but have been focused on eating correctly, and drinking my water, getting my exercise, and keeping my goals together rather than plow through a bag of chips. I feel more in control of myself, and even with my challenging morning, feel more inspired.