My Inner Struggle

My inner struggle is so real today. I am too ashamed to share the details (nothing immoral or illegal- more of an anxiety related character flaw) I'm Irish Catholic and I carry guilt with me harshly and have a ridiculously tough time of letting go. So once guilt creeps into my psyche it takes a hold for days and leaves me in a funk. I went to bed that way last night and it has a hold of me still this morning. I see the beauty of the glorious sun glistening snow and all the solace and peace that scene outside my window presents. Yet, it will not allow me to shake my negative self talk.

It took a lot of self encouraging to sign in to SP this morning. I am glad I did. I just so happened to be on my goodie page and saw I had some 6+ months ago sent myself a bouquet of flowers. The note read; " You are loved~ You are enough~ You are deserving" I am so glad I wrote myself that note, because today I really needed to read it, say it and feel it. I'm working on feeling that way today, but I know that statement to be true( on the positive side of my self talk) I am optimistic I can get there again.

I would like to encourage anyone who maybe reading this blog to send yourself a goodie & a note...your future self might just need it! Have a wonderful day Sparkers