I'm angry at myself
Wednesday, February 03, 2016
Been gone for just short of a year. Got tired of trying to track and not succeeding, trying to make changes and not succeeding. Kept being frustrated because when I first joined spark I lost 20 lbs, gained it back and couldn't lose it again.
Its okay to be angry with myself. I need to be. I have many reasons to be healthy, I need to take a look at why I'm struggling so hard to make the changes. I'm thinking about seeing a therapist because I know there I thinks I need to work on to be healthy not just physically but also emotionally.
So this morning was Terrible!! I called in to work and slept another 7 hours because I felt like I didn't sleep at all last night. And you know what, I probably didn't really. We are pretty sure I have sleep apnea. Don't worry, I'm not self diagnosing, will talk with my doctor.
Meantime, what is the biggest change you can make for sleep apnea? Correct! Weight loss and a healthy lifestyle.
So last night my husband slept on the couch because I was snoring so loud, this morning I called into work, which is something I haven't done in years, and I slept the day away.
So I am using this my wake up call. Recently I started making changes, but only half heartedly. This is a big motivation.