Back on the tredmill
Wednesday, February 03, 2016
Good morning world! There's something so empowering about getting up at 5 am and doing something for myself. I hung onto my morning workout most of the day yesterday. I felt stressed still at work for sure but I also felt at peace with myself and food. When I felt hungry, I ate and made pretty good choices. I even went out to lunch. Starving and with good friends I dove into the guac and chips hard. But made sure to order a very light spinach and salmon salad for the main course. No dried cranberries. No candied almonds. Dressing on the side. And it was good! I felt full and happy leaving lunch. Guilt free and empowered! Food has such a hold over me. Eating. Not eating. Dieting. Binging. Watching. It's crazy actually how obsessed one can be with food. To eat or not to eat. It's all about control. Without being dangerous or crazy about it, I'd like to think that some recognition needs to go to this control in a good way. It's good to feeling in control positively. Like right now. I'm writing to you from my treadmill. The minutes are passing by virtually unnoticed. I'm focused here. I'm walking and blogging and later I'll be logging. Wow! In control of my own path. Mindset: positive. Feels awesome!