IT TOOK ME 5 YEARS TO FIGURE IT OUT!
Sunday, January 31, 2016
I have been feeling kind of down the past couple of days. Someone posted something on Facebook titled "7 Things I Learned When My child Died" and for some reason I read it through. It really helped but it also made me a bit sad. And then I took a good look at how I wasn't doing my best to live my life in the present.
Diane and I often watch a My 600 lb Life. The other night my DH and I finally figured out why. My reasons aren't like many of those who have gotten to that weight, it was shame for something I couldn't even control. It started when I first went on disability. When people asked what I did for work, I felt totally ashamed to say that I was on disability. The looks I received really hurt. Things got better, but that shame is still there. The last 18 months hasn't helped either. Not being able to walk and then breaking my arm messed me up.
But no more!!! I volunteer at a local food pantry for those in need and it gives me a feeling of purpose that I had been missing, coordinate blood drives for our local Red Cross, and am the CL on the 5% Challenge Team the Spirited UnderDawgs
Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to do my damnedest to get my life back on track. No more self pity and no more excuses. I have a plan, a great personal trainer and a great support system. I can do this.
You all have helped more than you can ever know. Thanks for always being there.