MARYANNGI
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IT TOOK ME 5 YEARS TO FIGURE IT OUT!

Sunday, January 31, 2016

I have been feeling kind of down the past couple of days. Someone posted something on Facebook titled "7 Things I Learned When My child Died" and for some reason I read it through. It really helped but it also made me a bit sad. And then I took a good look at how I wasn't doing my best to live my life in the present.

Diane and I often watch a My 600 lb Life. The other night my DH and I finally figured out why. My reasons aren't like many of those who have gotten to that weight, it was shame for something I couldn't even control. It started when I first went on disability. When people asked what I did for work, I felt totally ashamed to say that I was on disability. The looks I received really hurt. Things got better, but that shame is still there. The last 18 months hasn't helped either. Not being able to walk and then breaking my arm messed me up.

But no more!!! I volunteer at a local food pantry for those in need and it gives me a feeling of purpose that I had been missing, coordinate blood drives for our local Red Cross, and am the CL on the 5% Challenge Team the Spirited UnderDawgs

Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to do my damnedest to get my life back on track. No more self pity and no more excuses. I have a plan, a great personal trainer and a great support system. I can do this.

You all have helped more than you can ever know. Thanks for always being there.
MaryAnn
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  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    My Dearest friend, Hon,,,, the second most question everyone asks us is "Where do you work?" No all "work" is a job where we get money. You DO work and GEt hard at HH,,, they are very fortunate to have you!! The work for the blood drives you do,,,is one which many can't do,,it takes a highly driven and organised person to do this.

    As for SPARKS,,,, we all cherish you GREATLY!!! You and I spend many hours together to aid the other leaders,,,with ideas,,,,and they have astonishing ideas,,,,we are so fortunate to have you leading us to be the strong team we are.

    Please let these things you do for others to sink in deeply into you. Notice how very important to all 3 organizations you are. We do NOT need a pay check to make us who we are. There are many who get a pay check, but do NOT deserve it. We both have been managers and have had to let such like ones go.

    It's the person we are,,,how kind we are,,,,how we live our lives which count. You my dear friend,,,are dearly loved,,,respected. You are also a Wife, Mom who's family are blessed to have you. You never harmed ur childhood and have stood though many situations as the Wife, Mom keeping it running. On that alone ur value is very high.

    As a dear friend,,, I know I can always come to you,,,that you will listen,,,laugh,,cry,,,,as we share our lives together. Thank you Hon for being a cherished friend.
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  • CHERIRIDDELL
    You are amazing and have loads to offer .You can be anything that you want to be .
    1696 days ago
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    Mary Ann I am so glad that you are going to get through this. I love that you are volunteering your time, it is such a great and selfless thing to do. You definitely get more back than what you put into it that is for sure. Keep on moving forward emoticon
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  • GRAMMYEAC
    What a marvelous insight into the root cause of your shame and frustrations! And what a wonderful commitment to help so many people with your involvement in your community projects!
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  • AALLEY2
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Today is the new day, yesterday is gone. I try to focus on what I can do today, which isn't easy unless I plan ahead for tomorrow. That helps a lot, especially when I'm stressed out. emoticon
    1696 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    Glad to see you getting serious about improving your life. It is never too late.
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    It's never too late ! You " have a plan"- great start, MaryAnn! emoticon emoticon
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  • MARINGAL
    Maryann, when you finally learn not to wast your precious energy worrying about what people think of you, you will find living life will be less stressful and a lot more easier.
    1697 days ago
  • MAYIE53
    May all your tomorrows be as positive and productive as was today. You have got this.
    1697 days ago
  • TIPTOEKIRKUM
    Wishing you all the best!
    1697 days ago
  • GGRSPARK
    Darn thus minute iPhone... I meant gotten lost ... Usually off the 4 on the way to Concord...lots of times.
    1697 days ago
  • GGRSPARK
    Yours is an interesting story and I believe you have reached that point where you can see the path ahead. I am a Montrealer now in Toronto and have driven through your beautiful state many times. And gotten list too;~}}
    1697 days ago
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