Friday, January 29, 2016
I've been hesitant to write here. Last year was quite depressing for me, and frankly, a wash. It just hit me that after finishing college, I still ended up doing jobs that I didn't even need a degree for-jobs that I set out to avoid by going to college. I knew that my income opportuities wouldn't necessarily change after getting an undergrad degree, but I thought maybe I'd at least be able to find something entry level in my field. So many applications, one interview, and nothing. At least I'll be able to get a job I like when I get my Master's degree.
I guess I just didn't realize how dismal the job market really was. I ended up working at a T-Mobile call center for almost a year, before quitting. In a cruel twist of irony, we were living in the same apartment complex we lived in before moving in with my parents for the first year of university.
We're currently living with my parents now. That's why I was financially able to quit my job. I just hated that I was working a job that I set out to avoid by going to college. Shortly after, I got a job responding to customer emails. It wasnt that bad, and there was no direct customer service, but there was no challenge, and I quickly became depressed and quit after about 3 weeks. It was a 20 minute commute to a rural town during dangerously icy weather that wasn't worth the 10.00 and hour. All of last year, I stayed over 310 pounds. My highest, 337.
Thankfully, my fiance has a decent paying job-that he actually likes! I'm so happy for him! We talked and he's going to let me take my time, work part time, and go get my Master's degree! I'm so happy! I've been using this time to work on my health again. I'm going to at least volunteer in my field, and maybe that'll bring a letter of recomendation or two.
In the meantime, I'm just enjoying life, taking each day at a time, and doing the household stuff like cleaning the living space, and doing laundry. I went swimming a couple days ago-first time this year! Definitely love it. I'm thinking about getting a membership because seriously, I LOVE swimming. I always have. I remember the sunny days in California in my early childhood, and all the swiming in the lake, and that one summer I was on my community pool's swim team, and all those countless other times where I was the first one in, last one out.
My younger brother has been a source of motivation and support. We went jogging together a couple days ago, and today we're going again today when he gets off work.
I feel optimistic about this year.