Day 9, 10 and 11
Tuesday, January 12, 2016
I told you I'm not that great at blogging or remembering to do it but I have decided that I will continue just so I can track my progress.
I had a lot of thinking to do this weekend. The kids were all home and we have a good time but I can't help but just sit and think about life. My oldest child is 17 and going to be graduating from school this year. She is a decent child, never in trouble, gets good grades in school and had a part time job for a little while over the holiday season. My youngest is 7 so I still have 11 years until he leaves me for college.
I just sat and wondered if I really do matter to people in this world. Of course my kids are my number one fan but what about other people. I don't think that many people do know the real me or even want to know me. They see the outside and that's all they want to see.
So now the big question is, who do I want to notice me? Family? My boyfriend? Friends? or strangers? I just want to be noticed and want someone to actually want me. Will losing weight solve this feeling?
So now I have decided to change my goal for the year. Not only do I want to lose weight, look amazing and feel amazing but I want to work on the inside too. I want to be as happy inside as I will be looking into a mirror!