3 days in, back to work
Monday, January 04, 2016
I am back to work today - luckily with no students. It's hard to get my head back in the game after 2 weeks off. I have a list of stuff I should do, but since none of it is on a NEED to do basis I am having trouble getting motivated to do it.
Today is day 3 of the challenge set forth by a friend of mine. 21 days of no junk food: No cookies, no candy, no pastries, no chocolate, no white bread, no ice cream, no fast food, no chips, no soda. So far I'm doing well. I've been having my Shakeology shake in the mornings, and that has tended to hold me over until lunch. Lunches have been sensible and I haven't really needed any snacks before dinner. Dinners have been homemade and filling. Last night I had a little snack before bed but was still way under in calories. Today at work the administration made us breakfast (pancakes) and I didn't have any. I was proud of myself because they are always very tasty and it's a nice gesture. There is chocolate EVERYWHERE in this building today and it's hard to resist. But I will stay strong!
I found some great accountability partners with Julie and Eddy is joining us today I think. It definitely makes me think about everything I put in my mouth because I need to take a picture of it and send it to them and if I don't have my phone I can't eat it! I am generally okay for the first few days but will need the kick in the butt around the 1 week point and beyond.
I have, for my entire life, really feared the feeling of being hungry. And I know it's because hunger (real genuine hunger - which I so rarely feel) usually leads to a headache and that is my Achilles heel. I do not deal with headaches well. 9 times out of 10 when I think I am hungry I am thirsty or it is psychological. I am not anywhere near hungry and then I start thinking about food or what sounds good and magically my stomach starts to growl. I have never shied away from the fact that I know I have an unhealthy relationship with food. It would get to the point where I would overeat or eat when I was NOT hungry so that I wouldn't be caught hungry somewhere where I couldn't eat or had no food with me. So I am working this time on becoming okay with the hungry feeling. Really okay with it and also being able to decipher if its real hunger or something else going on. If I can figure out the difference and keep the mindset that if I am hungry then I deserve to eat, and not the other way around, maybe that will help keep me on track. Like right this moment, I am feeling hungry. I had a 234 calorie breakfast 3 hours ago, so it's possible that I'm a little hungry. But I also know that I haven't had any water since getting to work, so I am going to start there. I will try to hold myself over til lunch (which is an hour away) by drinking. I have almonds here today though to munch on if absolutely needed. I need to shrink my stomach!