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Holy Cow!

Saturday, January 02, 2016

Ugh! So I've been doing good since the new year, but December I was on a diet of wine and chocolate with lots of meals out and not so much fitness. Today I got real and stepped on the scale! Yikes! It said 222... I haven't seen that number in years! Now, I retain water very easily, so I'm checking it again in a few days and expecting a much smaller number just due to loss of fluid retention from salty New Year's Eve dining (seriously, I can gain 10+ pounds from eating salty foods and magically lose it in less than 5 days-water retention)... So right this minute I have a choice: I can beat myself over a number or I can say "oh well, it's a good number to start at" and move on. I think the latter is the better choice. Wednesday, I went for coffee (as friends) with a guy I haven't seen in two years and the first thing he said to me was "you got fat". It bothered me more that the words were rattling around in my head than that was his opinion of me. When I could zip size twos there were days that I thought "you're so fat". I want to love the skin I'm in. I am a 12, but it's a tight 12 this week. Fat is something I have, it's not something I am. I told him anyone that wants to date me is going to have to be okay with my weight fluctuating because it's a battle for me. I'm just going to let this go and move forward.
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    I wouldn't call that guy a kind and supportive friend for sure, I wonder if hurtful remarks ever helped anybody : (
    Be kind and take good care of yourself!
    Your weight will return to where it should be soon after you return to your normal eating and exercise routine.

    1927 days ago
    YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!
    1927 days ago
    Hang on to that attitude, you'll probably get to use it a lot!!

    There are so many people out there that just verbalize whatever thought pops into their heads, without considering how those words can make others feel.

    Just emoticon

    1927 days ago
    This is a new day and a new year. You can do it my friend. You can do anything you set your mind to .
    People can be so insensitive to others feelings so shake off what your "Old" friend said to you.
    You eat healthy, work out daily and think healthy and you will get to where you want to be. Always remember why you began the healthy journey in the first place and you will stay focused on the end results.

    Hugs Susan emoticon
    1927 days ago
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