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Saturday, December 26, 2015

Christmas is over. I celebrated this season with a personal gift: I completed the half marathon in 2:56 on 24th. No amount of aches would blunt my joy. In my previous attempt, one month ago, I'd completed the same in more than 4 hours. This year I started my weight loss journey weighing 255 lbs. At my last weigh in I was 205 lbs. There were more dramatic changes to my body, as my pant size dropped 6 inches, and went from wearing XXL to L. Well, after Christmas lunch, the ocassion warranted group photos. I immediately reverted to original form. I've always refused to take photos. I don't have photos of the past years because I really didn't like how I looked. I'd to be dragged into just three of the hundreds of photos taken. In my mind I was still obese and that thought formed my timidity. Well, I got the photos sent to me. I was totally shocked. The reality was nothing like my mental image. In the photos I was the smallest. As I looked at the photos I begun reflecting on body image and how I still viewed my body despite my weight loss to date. While I'd the raw data regarding my weight loss, reduction in dress sizes etc, it still didn't translate into a change in my attitude. I still was obese in my mind, even if my BMI is almost at healthy weight level. I felt it was time to celebrate, not to be too uptight and recognise that the hundreds of minutes spent in cardio per week have paid off. I feel I must celebrate my portion control, and attempts at honest calorie differentials per day. I'd a christmas lunch of 650 calories and still had a differential of 500 at the end of the day. This is a celebratory joyful blog. This Christmas has given me a great realization, that one must also go through an internal change, and recognise the outward changes. I look forward to losing my last 22lbs next year, to finally reach my ideal weight. I also want to finish a full marathon and half triathlon. I know that with my renewed confidence and self esteem I can do this. Happy New Year to you all
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    What a wonderful Christmas gift you received, to be able to see yourself as others see you! When I lost lots of weight, I've been where you are with being a smaller size but still thinking that you're much too big. It's funny what our brains do to us. But photos don't lie! Keep looking at them and see the reality. Take occasional selfies and see what others see.

    It's time to get back into those pictures! emoticon

    The very best of luck to you as you continue to lose weight and connect with yourself emotionally.
    1865 days ago
    You are an inspiration
    1865 days ago
    Congrats. The mental battle is the hardest. Keep striving. :)
    1868 days ago
    Congratulations on your accomplishments and for getting your picture taken. Put a picture up somewhere where you will ses it daily. Let it motivate you that you did the work to lose the weight. Once you reach your goal, there is still maintenance. Happy New Year to you and thanks for the goodie! I believe you will get to your goal this year.
    1883 days ago
    Wow! Congratulations on your accomplishments!!
    1890 days ago
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