What if I am just always fat and sad? 12/11/15
Friday, December 11, 2015
Biking home today, only my forth ride of the week when I usually ride ten, I thought What if this is how I am? I've been trying to lose weight since I was eight years old. I've been melancholy and prone to depression since fourteen. Maybe I will never be the cheery, slender girl I yearn to be.
I think this is likely true. I won't cure cyclical depression and my body doesn't seem too eager to dip lower than 175 even at peak performance.
But Sparkpeople isn't weight loss, it's healthy living. So I will be over weight but I l will be active and eat healthy foods. I will be depressed but I will cope. Such a lifestyle will no doubt cause changes in my body, but they will be limited to the range of my unique health.
And so I keep going.