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What if I am just always fat and sad? 12/11/15

Friday, December 11, 2015

Biking home today, only my forth ride of the week when I usually ride ten, I thought What if this is how I am? I've been trying to lose weight since I was eight years old. I've been melancholy and prone to depression since fourteen. Maybe I will never be the cheery, slender girl I yearn to be. I think this is likely true. I won't cure cyclical depression and my body doesn't seem too eager to dip lower than 175 even at peak performance. But Sparkpeople isn't weight loss, it's healthy living. So I will be over weight but I l will be active and eat healthy foods. I will be depressed but I will cope. Such a lifestyle will no doubt cause changes in my body, but they will be limited to the range of my unique health. And so I keep going.
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    Hugs!! Continue to hang in there, I know you'll pull through this!
    1193 days ago
    I am sending you a big hug. I know clinical depression can be like a big black dog just lurking about. I hope you can coexist with him and not let him push you off the sunny side of the couch too often. Keep going!
    1193 days ago
    Could the mood be due to not loving who you were created to be? Focus on one thing you do like about yourself and run with it.
    1193 days ago
  • TR1975
    Try to keep your head up and keep going! You can do it!!!
    1193 days ago
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