life in recovery, day #11
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
November 18, 2015
Recovery is supposed to be about healthy, and here I am, coughing up green crap.
November 24, 2015
Still sick, but now I think it’s more reparation. Work is covered, and I have some healing to do so I am staying home. Today’s thought: “I discovered that my sins had created a spiritual racket that drowned out the gentle whispers of God to my soul; God had never actually abandoned me, but I needed repentance and sacramental grace to reawaken all that was good and beautiful in me.” from True Radiance…and then I was thinking sorry for myself thoughts, that I’m sick, that I’m broke, that my lips hurt, that my house is dirty and so forth…”In Ecclesiastes we read, “Whether a tree falls to the south or to the north, in the place where it falls, there it will lie.” The Ba’al Shem Tov, a renowned rabbi in 18th-century Ukraine connected the verse to another from 1 Chronicles 28:9: “ . . . acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him.” What does one verse have to do with the other?The great rabbi explained that knowing God means knowing that everything comes from God. It means having complete awareness throughout our lives that God is running the show and is the cause behind every occurrence in our lives. Along these lines, the rabbi interpreted the verse from Ecclesiastes as follows, “Wherever a tree falls, that is where it is meant to be.” In other words, everything in life, from great wars to the slightest breeze is ordained by God, Master of the Universe.When I think of the strength of heroes like Odell Benita, I remember that if someone can have unwavering faith in God after experiencing such a horrible tragedy, how much more so should we have the same attitude when minor things in life don’t go our way? Let us all accept our circumstances with love and grace as a tribute to those who have weathered far worse storms than our own and have emerged full of faith and devotion.” From Rabbi Eckstein.