I am angry, 11/19/2015 ($#@^#!!)
Thursday, November 19, 2015
I am angry.
I am on a bus in public and I try not to be a d!ck in closed quarters, so I am quiet about it. But I. Am. So. Angry.
I am angry with the well-meaning condescending canned "information" that I am being fed.
1) anyone overweight is obviously unhealthy and should "educate themselves"
--Scientific research is unraveling our stigma against overweight people every day. Why we gain/retain weight is still a subject of hot debate. Whether that weight is patently harmful IS ALSO unclear.
Losing weight is not strictly "great" and should not be automatically celebrated on sight. Weight, we are finding, enters less and less into the conversation of Health.
So start asking me if I take my sick days and vacation. Ask me if I am sleeping well. Ask me, if something tragic happens in my life do I have someone to talk to, grieve with, and help make me dinner when all I want to do is cry? Ask me if I find myself crying for no reason, if I can't shake the common cold in under a week, if I have ever yelled at a waiter or a cashier (no matter how deserving).
I am overweight. People open their eyes and hush me when I say this out loud, as if I have said something self-deprecating like "I am undeserving of love". But no, I just point out that someone my height age and weight should be 30lbs lighter according to popular, mainstream health guidelines. That is the recommended weight. I am over it. I'm over weight.
I also bike a ton, go to the gym, came in second on the mile run Turkey Trot at work today (11 minutes yay!) And I have an obsessive knowledge of nutritional foods.
Weight is not indicative of health. Health is not restricted to weight. Stop conflating the two. Yes, I am " trying to lose weight" but I am really just trying to do a push up, a pull up, and yoga that isn't impeded by my belly. Eventually I want to bike to another state, then bike for 3 days straight, then across Iowa. My weight may change because of this.