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When success is as scary as failure, 11/17/15

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

November two big things. The first is National Novel Writing Month. My goal is 50,000 words in a month which means at least 1667 words a day. And for eleven days straight I was doing great. I came home and cleared off the table. I sat down after a light dinner (and the gym!) and groaned, moaned, complained but punched out the words. Then I went to bed feeling self-satisfied. I stopped writing four days and go and can't really start up again. November is also me trying to dip just under 190lbs to have officially "lost" those five (*cough* eight) pounds and move on to the next challenge. Suddenly, standing on the scale one morning during my weekly weigh-ins, I was about there. 190.8. I had the rest of the month to keep the previous weight off and maybe throw over another pound. Boom. Success. I am terrified. I skipped the gym for a week. I have been feeling under the weather physically and emotionally. It is difficult to get going again. I packed gym clothes for today and will do my best to get out of work early enough to get to the gym and practice my pull ups. I don't know if I will write today, but maybe tomorrow I will take myself on a writing date. Anyone else fear success?
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  • BILL60
    Success.....NO, Failure.......Yes.
    1062 days ago
  • DIZZYBRITCHES
    Yes, I think so. I don't know what to do about it but keep trying. Or maybe not cast things in terms of "success" or "failure", but instead in terms of things done and those yet to be done.
    1063 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    Not here. Just breathing is a success. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1063 days ago
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