I've come a lonngggggg way!
Monday, November 16, 2015
Disclaimer: This might just be the endorphins talking.
Tonight after work, I ran. I made it my "long run" for the week, because this night the kid stay at karate with my husband (so I have more time). And because I haven't done a long run in a couple weeks. (Just medium runs lately.)
It occurred to me how far I've come in my mentality, because a year ago (even 7 months ago), I would have had EVERY excuse in the book (legitimate, in my own mind) NOT to work out at all tonight, much less challenge myself with a full 60 minute run.
I didn't have a big lunch, nor anything at all to eat since about noon.
I worked late, so I didn't even get to the gym until 5:30 (and no snack in me!).
I did weights yesterday, so I was sore.
It's raining. Dark. Windy.
But it never even crossed my mind to skip.
It did cross my mind whether to run 60 or just 40 minutes. I plugged 60 into the machine. (Once something is plugged in, I play a mental game with myself... to see if I can not touch the controls again until the run is finished.) Even so... I listen to my body. If there's a sharp pain. Or, if I'm really not feeling it, there's no shame in a moderate workout. I wasn't really feeling it tonight... but I also wasn't in any real pain.
What's funny is that it wasn't my best run. My legs felt a bit lead-like. There was no point where I hit an easy stretch (where you feel like you're just cruising). There was no first two miles of cake walk before things got difficult. (Though I am proud to say that I can kick out one mile without getting winded now. And even when my legs feel heavy and slow, there is NOTHING like the pain I used to feel back when I routinely overtrained.) Ironically, though nothing about this run felt like my best run... it WAS a personal best. I did 5 miles in 60 minutes. (I know, that's not impressive to people who are not turtles. For me, it's amazing!)
I am so proud to know that I've reached a point in my training where--to a reasonable extent--it's mind over matter. My body will go where my mind leads.
I am so proud to know that, just 6 months ago, I was running 1 minute, walking 3... for 30 minutes at a time. And now I can run for 60 minutes at a stretch!!