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Telling myself the Truth

Monday, November 16, 2015

So for almost 3 years I haven't been truthful with myself! I have gained a lot of weight back. I was 163 pounds the summer of 2013. So close to my goal of 150 howevwr, i let family drama and feeling my body hadn't changed the way I wanted it to let me stumble. I gave up for weeks at a time and here I am trying for over a year to start loosing weight again, at 208 pounds. Yeah it's ugly but it is what it is. I'm really struggling with what to eat and not to eat, how much to exercise. But that's not really the bad part, the bad part is I haven't been honest with myself. I'm pretending I'm doing good when I know I'm not. I really felt like a lot of people were looking up to me when I lost over 100 pounds, and I feel like I let myself down. I'm avoiding people and making excuses, but not anymore. It's time to stop hiding, admit I let myself get out of hand, and move forward. I do have 1 week of exercising everyday, though last night I did "lazy" yoga. I'm doing one day at a time and today I'm going to take my dog for a walk, get laundry done, dishes put away, and bathroom cleaned.
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    Way to go! That's a really tough thing to do- but here you are!! I am at 223 and my goal is also 150. Keep at it, you can do it!!
    1225 days ago
    Small steps are still steps. You can do this! Good luck!
    1225 days ago
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