My First Sign from God?
Thursday, November 12, 2015
I prayed again this morning. I asked God to send me another sign, because if he had sent any at all, they weren't big enough for me to see. I wasn't scolding, I was pleading. I explained to him that my depression was getting worse, and that I needed help, if only for today. I told him that I'd pray for the same thing every day, since praying once to banish my depression is a little stubborn.
So here I am, hoping I'd find my sign from God. And I think I received one. Now let me back track for just a second.
I found out not too long ago that I wouldn't be able to enroll in school this semester until I paid back $3,600 in loan money because I medically withdrew from my classes. That upset me so much, since school has helped with depression by giving me something to concentrate on. I took over $1,000 (the only money I had left) and paid some of the debt. That still meant I had about $2,600 left to go.
Something told me to check it again today. I looked, and it said I owed $1,168. It was still money I couldn't afford, but something also told me to call them about it. The lady on the other line told me it was a mistake that I owed so much, and that they are still adjusting numbers. "After it is all said and done", she said, "you shouldn't owe anything. In fact, you should get the amount you already paid back before Thanksgiving."
What was that I was feeling? Well, tears of joy of course! This meant I could enroll back in school this semester! I was so happy!
Now I know that God doesn't care much about money, but I don't think that's exactly what he was trying to help me with. I think he was trying to help relieve the stress that was on my shoulders and give me a chance to go back to school. Because school keeps my mind off of depression as much (unless I overwhelm myself, which I don't plan on doing ever again).
Let's just say I got on my knees and thanked God. I honestly believe that was my sign, and I will not deny one bit that there is something more out there looking over me!