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Fuss - not a cute thing to do anyway, so why did I?

Sunday, November 08, 2015

I want to send a Godzilla-sized thank you to the wonderful Sparkers who took the time to read my Conundrum blog, and for offering me some suggestions of what direction to take [whether to meet that fellow EM gal or not?].

I wanted to share what happened, or, what didn't.
I thought about our Spark 'conversation' for a little bit (hee hee), and then decided that I shouldn't be so focused on myself. I was essentially bending and twisting compassion toward someone into something icky. I said a quick prayer, and swept the fear out of my mind. What was left was the initial desire to go talk to that gal. Ok, here we go?
Interesting thing was, once I was at peace with the decision to reach out, the final decision had already been made by someone else.

My nurse went ahead and talked to the other patient's nurse on my behalf. Her nurse also thought it would be a great idea for us to meet - neat-o!
Unfortunately the patient's Dr. was not on board, and did not want me to meet her. Something about my EM being so severe (and let's be honest, quite visually unappealing). I guess my fear that I would have scared her was valid.

I was sad for a little bit, and decided to give myself an hour to be dumpy, then move on. My nurse was sad about it too - what a sweetie : ).

There is much beauty in my life, regardless of my EM. And I am thankful.





Such a great quote:



'Nuff Said.
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  • TRENTDREAMER
    "I want to send a Godzilla-sized thank you to the wonderful Sparkers who took the time to read my Conundrum blog,"
    * Sorry for not being there.

    "I was sad for a little bit, and decided to give myself an hour to be dumpy, then move on. My nurse was sad about it too - what a sweetie : ). "
    * #dumpy :)

    "There is much beauty in my life, regardless of my EM. And I am thankful. "
    * I'm thankful for the beauty in your life #youdeserveit

    1050 days ago
  • CARRILU
    Awww man, okay well regardless, you got to "do you" in the process. There are not parts of you that are awesome Bren, all of you is awesome! I'm so sad that this girl did not get to meet you and be blessed with your remarkable spirit live and in person, a privilege most of us here only dream about emoticon .
    1056 days ago
  • CTUPTON
    Awwww! What a bummer.


    Could you suggest the girl use the online support team. She certainly does need to know she is not alone.

    When she gets to know others , I would think she would build confidence. Then ask the doctor again if you two could talk face to face? You are so strong! She will recognize that.

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    1057 days ago
  • JCARDINAL
    I think that doctor made an error in not letting that girl meet you. She would have appreciated your awesomeness and realized she wasn't alone in this world. Many healing prayers to you my wonderful friend! emoticon emoticon
    1070 days ago
  • CHANGING-TURTLE
    YOU ARE emoticon !!!! And I mean that emoticon
    1075 days ago
  • MEWHENRYSMAMA
    Oh, my Sweet Friend!
    I am sorry it didn't work to meet the young gal with EM! I think if she met you, despite seeing the progression of the disease, she would have seen that you have survived, married and have a life! I think that's what the nurse saw, too! But, who knows, maybe the opportunity will present itself again. I think it's important, too, that you decided how you felt about it and didn't feel the need to keep worrying about your compassion turning into something "icky"! You are totally awesome...and certainly are an example of living with this disease with courage and delightful humor!
    The pictures of your fur babies are so precious! I am so glad you are blessed with seeing those sweet faces everyday!
    I hope you have a good week, Bren!
    Love & Hugs
    1076 days ago
  • WARRIORGIRL121
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    1077 days ago
  • RYDERB
    Oh my! After all that you went through to make your decision too. emoticon I think the doctor did his patient a disservice. EM or not, YOU are totally AWESOME! Having the opportunity to meet you would have been such a blessing, for that patient. I know my life has been changed for the better, for having met you here, on SP.
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    1077 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
    emoticon for the update. YOU are emoticon
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    1077 days ago
  • WHITE-GREEN
    emoticon I like how you felt within yourself what you wanted to do.
    1077 days ago
  • _RAMONA
    Sometimes seeds planted take a long time to find their way into the sun. An overture was made, and God knows your heart. He will create the way I His own time.

    I thought the suggestion to form an email friendship was a really good one... I wonder if the doctor would support that?

    ...and for the record, more than just 'parts' of you are AWESOME!

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    1077 days ago
  • LESLIELENORE
    Your heart is in the right place.
    1077 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    I also love the way my eyes are quite attractive whatever size my body is!
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    1077 days ago
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