Fuss - not a cute thing to do anyway, so why did I?
Sunday, November 08, 2015
I want to send a Godzilla-sized thank you to the wonderful Sparkers who took the time to read my Conundrum blog, and for offering me some suggestions of what direction to take [whether to meet that fellow EM gal or not?].
I wanted to share what happened, or, what didn't.
I thought about our Spark 'conversation' for a little bit (hee hee), and then decided that I shouldn't be so focused on myself. I was essentially bending and twisting compassion toward someone into something icky. I said a quick prayer, and swept the fear out of my mind. What was left was the initial desire to go talk to that gal. Ok, here we go?
Interesting thing was, once I was at peace with the decision to reach out, the final decision had already been made by someone else.
My nurse went ahead and talked to the other patient's nurse on my behalf. Her nurse also thought it would be a great idea for us to meet - neat-o!
Unfortunately the patient's Dr. was not on board, and did not want me to meet her. Something about my EM being so severe (and let's be honest, quite visually unappealing). I guess my fear that I would have scared her was valid.
I was sad for a little bit, and decided to give myself an hour to be dumpy, then move on. My nurse was sad about it too - what a sweetie : ).
There is much beauty in my life, regardless of my EM. And I am thankful.
Such a great quote: