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Still here.. Hanging by a Thread

Friday, October 30, 2015

Okay so I'm still here. I'm hanging on by a thread but I'm Not giving up!! For some reason I'm finding this journey so much harder than the last time. I can't seem to get it together. Yes things have changed. I now have 3 kids that need my attention all the time. I'm also homeschooling them now. Where as before my oldest was in school and at the time my youngest was here with me. Our routine is different for sure. But the homeschooling seems to be working out for us in many ways. My stress level has been alittle more I guess. I just need to get back to where I was before we decided to have another baby. And Yes he was worth the weight gain and the changes. I love my babies more than anything! Thus another reason I need to lose this weight and be healthier for my babies. I guess what I'm saying is I need to find my will power and give my motivate a huge kick in the butt!! I've got to make time for me! My biggest issue is feeling guilty. Guilty because the house isn't staying super clean any more and I know it bothers my hubby. And guilty when I'm not giving my kids my full attention and spending all my time making memory's with them now while there young. To be honest guilt seems to be eating me. Causing me the most of my stress. Sorry for the downer! I guess I just need to get this out. Thank you for taking the time to read. I hope you have a Great Weekend! Happy Halloween!
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  • EMGERBER
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    687 days ago
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    687 days ago
  • JPAMPY
    Tara-
    I know how you feel. I homeschooled for a year and a half. Life definitely gets more busy and a little more stressful with having young children at home and schooling them. I'm praying for you! I know you can do it!! You will get a routine and find time to exercise and take care of you. That needs to happen at least once a week. Take time for yourself. If you aren't balanced and feeling well, its going to pour out in your teaching and parenting. You have my full support!!! emoticon emoticon
    1099 days ago
  • TARAFROMTX1
    Thank you all so much! I truly appreciate all the
    Words of wisdom and advice. I'm only phone so it's not letting me thank you each separately. Again Thank you!!!
    1109 days ago
  • MENNOLY
    Welcome back! Like you I also gained back a lot of weight and am having trouble getting motivated to be serious about weight loss. I did put a stop to the weight gain and am maintaining. It is a lot harder the 2nd time around and I don't think I could do it if I had 3 kids at home all the time. You do need to let go of the guilt though. Feeling guilty only makes it all harder. One day at a time you can do it again!
    1114 days ago
  • FIFIFRIZZLE
    Hi Tara great to see you back.
    Like you I lost and then grew some more fat. The idea of releasing it all again seemed really daunting, but I know I can do it. The trick is, how to keep it off.
    I've just finished a challenge to read through the book the Beck Diet Solution, and I think It is the missing link for me. It addresses thinking errors that people with weight issues have, that thin people don't have. It is a recommended reading on the At Goal and Maintenance team, which says a lot.
    There is a BDS team. I joined it and did a Beck Trek where a bunch of us read through the book and blogged about it. It was great to do it in company especially for me because I had tried to read the book a couple of times and couldn,t get through it.
    I'm going to start a mini challenge late November working on eating behaviours, and I'm blogging a recap at the moment, so drop on by my blogs if you like and check them out.

    1114 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/30/2015 2:08:47 PM
  • WILDFLOWERMA
    It sounds like you have many great reasons to stay the course on your healthy journey. However, what I hear you saying is that you are "guilty" for all kinds of things you're not able to find time for. Release the guilt if you can - you are doing an amazing job. However, you are one person who can only do so much in one day. Ask for help when you need it. Maybe your husband could help you juggle your new schedule? You deserve some time to take care of you. After all, you need your strength to be there for your beautiful crew.
    1114 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/30/2015 1:22:10 PM
  • TARAFROMTX1
    Thank you SoniaHutchins! I truly appreciate it emoticon
    1114 days ago
  • SONIAHUTCHINS
    I am glad you are able to express your feelings with us. Just take one hour at a time start with a glass of water and a piece of fruit for breakfast and continue slow threw out the day
    1114 days ago
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