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Once in a while, blow your own damn mind.

Saturday, October 24, 2015



Once in a while, blow your own damn mind.

I hit a big weight loss milestone today. I will write more about it tomorrow.

Last night, I really thought about my journey. What made me decide to get going? What inspired me to keep at it? Why am I succeeding when others do not?

As trite as this sounds, I think we all have to find our inner spark. We have to have that trigger go off that says, I am DONE feeling lousy. I am DONE being mad at myself all the time. I am DONE having trouble sitting in a seat..airplane, movie theater, pick one. I am DONE being that person anymore.

Now, I have to be realistic here. I have been saying that for a long time, but there was no real conviction in my heart. I turn sixty-years-old early next year. I have spent all my adult life overweight, and lately, really overweight. There were so many factors that got me there, but mostly it was just not exercising and eating the wrong things and not caring. I didn't care about me. How sad is that?

Somehow, you have to have the conviction that you are worth this journey. You have to realize that every single thing you eat is critical to your well being. You have to find an exercise that you like to do, that you want to continue forever. This is a forever deal. There are no quick fixes here. You have to change YOU. You have to know that feeling good is so much more awesome that anything you could think of to eat.

My spark was like a switch got turned on in my head. Do I wish I had been able to turn that switch sooner? NOPE. Because I don't think I was ready to follow through as I have now. I knew how critical this was as I got older and finally I realized that I was important enough to make this effort.

I have NSVs (Non-Scale-Victories!!) every single day. We might think they don't matter, but it just feels good to have people say nice things about the journey you are on, and have made such an effort at. My yoga teacher at the gym announced my weight loss to the chair yoga class, and the whole chair yoga class stood up and clapped for me. I was mortified, and almost started crying. People came up to me afterwards and and just said nice things. An older man, probably in his early 80s, asked if I could sit next to him at the next class. I laughed and said that I would be delighted to, and he winked at me. It made me feel AWESOME.

Get winked at today.

You deserve it.

Spark on.
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  • FIFIFRIZZLE
    That 'Don't care' has to disappear. You do care, because you deserve this wonderful victory, and you deserve to feel comfortable in a body that is the right size for you.
    As Beck says, we have to believe that we can get there and that it is our own efforts that make it possible. And look at what you just did.
    Just a bit more, then, consolidation and maintenance.
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    1994 days ago
  • no profile photo CHAYOR73
    well, what's the saying " It's never too late"............ good for you!! you're an emoticon person, keep up the great work!! emoticon
    1994 days ago
  • SRWYLIE
    This post makes me so happy! Getting winked at is fantastic! And you might even have the confidence to wink at someone else! You certainly are winkable!
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    Some of us get that Spark many times in our lives - put forth the effort, lose the weight, but then fall back into the same old habits. When i went to my 30th high school reunion, I was in amazing shape. I was determined to lose weight and get fit, and I did. But after the reunion, I went back to the same old eating and stopped exercising, and the pounds came right back. The great thing about THIS journey is that now I'm learning what it takes to maintain the weight loss after you've achieved the goal. And you know what, it's even more fabulous to maintain the healthy weight than it was to lose it in the first place! So you have something awesome to look forward to!

    Thanks for sharing the story of the yoga class. That brought a tear to my eye.

    The journey continues... Keep Sparking!
    1994 days ago
  • FORZACHANDMATT
    Absolutely beautiful
    1995 days ago
  • SUSANELAINE1956
    You blow my mind every day. You are an incredible lady!
    1995 days ago
  • KOFFEENUT
    Words of wisdom indeed!
    1995 days ago
  • PJDANIELS
    That moment that you really and truly get it? For me, that is "That's it!" moment, had enough! And you are so right that it will strike you when you are finally ready to do what you need to do, when you have learned the lessons you need to learn, to take on this challenge. If you're not ready, it will only be temporary. You go, Girlfriend! And it is always fun to get winked at!
    1995 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
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  • IOWALONEWOLF
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    What more can I say?
    1996 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12068097
    Loved your blog. Loved the wink story.
    1996 days ago
  • LISALOOPNER
    For me personally when it became about my health it wasn't as much of a struggle. In the past there has always been some dumb reason like a reunion or family gathering and I always ended up being heaver than when I started, go figure. This time it was really all about me and improving my heath no other "special occasions" and I'm in no hurry either.

    Sometimes your just ready when you ready, ya know.
    1996 days ago
  • GSEATON
    Blow it up, girl! Now you've got us hanging at the edge of our seats! We will know soon! Hugs.
    1996 days ago
  • OBIESMOM2
    love it!

    too many people don't recognize the daily little victories.

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    1996 days ago
  • MITCHSTA1232
    Thank-you, Thank-you, Thank-you for sharing your journey with us! I am in AWE of your amazing transformation to better health!

    Can't wait until you are hit on by a younger man and we can all call you a Cheetah!

    Congratulations and best of luck as you continue your journey!

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    1996 days ago
  • MPLSKEN
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    1996 days ago
  • MINNIEUK
    You are such a minx!! - turning heads at the yoga class emoticon
    The weight loss is amazing, the NSVs are awesome, learning to care enough about yourself to look after yourself is wonderful, and sharing it with all of us is inspirational!
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    1996 days ago
  • no profile photo JEANNETTE59
    emoticon emoticon I love non scale victories (NSV). One of my favorites has been clothes that I loved and kept, most having zippers and buttons, dreaming of wearing them again. And one day I bravely try on a favorite and then comes the magic moment, it fits. Not only does it fit, but it looks good!
    I've had many of those moments and have just about run out of those once too small clothes. But guess what there are more NSV that come as part of "downsizing" you know that you're never going to need those now too large clothes again. The next step is great for so many reasons, donate all of these clothing treasures to a worthy charity and make a lot of folks happy because they have some new to them clothes to wear.

    Life is what you make it, so make it your best possible life!
    1996 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
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    I stepped away from the PC for a moment and winked at myself in the mirror.
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    1996 days ago
  • GIVEIT20WKS
    Most Excellent!! Great victory for you and a great blog for us!!!
    I am also guessing what NSV means, but it must be something like non-weight victories???
    1996 days ago
  • COOLMAMA11
    Another fantastic blog Jane, congratulations on the loss..can't wait for the poem, really looking forward to it! emoticon
    1996 days ago
  • CRETE2953
    By the way..... sometimes I don't get all the right info......... what are NSV's?
    I know it's probably REALLY obvious to everybody else. I apologize in advance.
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    1996 days ago
  • CRETE2953
    You said, " We have to have that trigger go off that says, I am DONE feeling lousy. I am DONE being mad at myself all the time. I am DONE having trouble sitting in a seat..airplane, movie theater, pick one. I am DONE being that person anymore."

    YOU ARE SO RIGHT!!!.............. again. lol

    That is exactly what happened to me. Tired of looking for swim trunks that fit, tired of squeezing into different seats, tired of weighing too much to do different activities, tired of continuously buying bigger and bigger clothes. Tired, just tired. Both mentally and physically tired and fed up with myself and my body. WHY? I guess because I remember what I "used" to be. The condition I put myself in since is disgusting.

    Thank you for reminding me to check my feed. I seldom do that but you again are right. I DO love the way it reads. I was really glad this morning when I got on the scale and it said 295.3 as I was going to TRY to hit 295 by Sunday. I just need to keep this train heading in the right direction on the tracks I have laid so far. Thank you and my other Spark Friends for keeping the tracks clear ahead for me. YOU ARE AWSOME!!
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    1996 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    HUGS and so happy for those NSV's. Kudos!
    1996 days ago
  • CHALLENGER15
    Love this!
    1996 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    PS, How awesome is it to be winked at! emoticon
    1996 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    What an awesome point on blog! I so agree that we have to find the switch that turns on for each of us. You have to really want it because quite frankly, food is good, and food that causes the most weight gain is delicious! I had lost weight before, did all the right things, exercises restricted calories etc.... but never knew that it was a lifestyle change that I needed until I found SP. And wow, what a revelation this site was and continues to be.
    Congrats on the weight loss that you have accomplished along your journey and the fact that you found your spark to keep you here and to be the best that you can be. We are never too young or too old to live a healthier life. I am sure you are setting an example for your daughter as I am for mine and they might not be ready to live this kind of life as of yet, but at least when they want to, they know who to ask and where to find the resources. All the best to you as you continue this best journey ever!!!! emoticon emoticon
    1996 days ago
  • LIVINGLOVINLIFE
    What a delightful blog. You are right each person has to have their own moment. The light bulb effect. So glad that you have had yours. And awesome that the elderly gentleman winked at you! Being in my 60's I know about daily NSV'S and how important they are to our well-being. emoticon to you!!!
    1996 days ago
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