Time to BE HONEST
Thursday, October 15, 2015
I've been coming to Spark for a few years now. I have always had weight issues stemming all the way back to my childhood. The older I got the bigger I got. In my early 40's I joined Weight Watchers and lost 80 pounds. The time went by so fast it all seemed so easy. So I hung on to that premise that it would be easy to do it again. Well, here I am 52 years old and I'm 90 pounds over weight and absolutely miserable. I've tried periodically throughout the years to lose the weight again only to fail over and over again. I've always had it in my head to only think about taking small steps. Like losing 10 pounds at a time. Now that I think about it I really need to look at the whole picture. For the first time actually in my whole life I took a step back and looked a the whole picture. I am 5' 2" I should weigh about 135 pounds I weigh 225 pounds. That's 90 over weight! At first I was afraid to look at the math but after I did I actually felt much better. This was because I actually faced it head on. All this time I have been doing this little dance around this issue trying to avoid it with these little goals. What these little goals were telling me was that i really didn't have to hurry. If I blew it I could always start again. Now, don't get me wrong, I do understand the whole small steps at a time idea and that it does work for most people. It worked with me when I was on Weight Watchers. But I think I just started taking it for granted. Like it was an excuse to do a little ditty around my issues. Another positive thing this has done for me is I am honest about tracking ever lick and bite of food that I take. With Weight Watchers you don't have to log most fruits and vegetables. They are considered as 0 points. I still do this but I am also more diligent about seeking out the nutritional value of the fruit of vegetable before I make the decision not to log it in. Avocado for instance is a fruit but it does have fat and calories that wouldn't fit into the zero point category. There was a long time there where I was lying to myself and not logging those all fruits and vegetables because in my mind I had complete control of the situation. NOT! I came upon this revelation about a week ago and I feel AWESOME! I feel as though I am in control for the first time in a long time!
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