Close to Giving Up

Thursday, October 08, 2015

I'm usually reticent about putting myself out there, and moreso when I don't have any positives, but I don't know what else to do. Every time I think I'm low, I find myself somewhere even lower.

My weight has been slowly and steadily climbing and my doctors are now basically just shrugging their shoulders at me and going "I dunno." Which is just so f-ing helpful.

I've tried doing my own research, requesting various tests, but everything is normal, normal, normal.

I've also had "Ideal Protein" pushed on me several times now at my endocrinologist. I've done my reading on it and I don't feel good about it. Plus, I can't afford it.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I've been going steadily downhill since about July. Fatigue is worse, depression is worse, even my skin is worse. I want to see someone for the depression stuff, but I can't find anybody in-network and can't afford out-of-network.

Also, I'm now suddenly just barely into the "pre-diabetic" zone. I might have to cave and try Metformin, despite my concerns over the possible side-effects.

I just don't know what else to do, and I'm finding it hard to care about trying anymore. I can only take so much failure.
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    Well, you know I don't ever advocate giving up. Not on yourself, not on your health. There is an answer out there. I recognize the frustration in your written "voice" and understand it well, as it is my story as well during the years of trying to get the right treatment for my thyroid and the tumor that cocooned it without actually having to have my thyroid removed. Some days you just want to say "Screw it" and ignore it. Not an option.

    As to Ideal Protein - I know the premise is high protein supplementation because the body works harder to burn protein than it does carbs, right? Much cheaper suggestion to try would be Premier Protein shakes at Sam's or Costco. It's about 18 bucks average for a dozen shakes. They have between 4-5 carbs per shake and 30 grams of protein, the highest available on the market that I have found. They are also about the best tasting. These are what I use. If you don't have a membership to one of the clubs, I can pick up for you if you want....or if you come to the get together let me know and I'll bring you a chocolate and a vanilla one to try. They also come in strawberries and cream but I don't care for them. Another option is Unjury unflavored powder protein you can purchase online. It's medical grade protein, whatever that is, and can be used in warm or cold foods. I use it as well from time to time, but it still doesn't deliver the protein punch of the Premier shakes.

    No doctors in network to see for depression or none convenient to your location? I keep hearing people say they can't find doctors "in network" and never know if that means not in a place they wish to go or that type of doctor just isn't listed.

    Metformin isn't ideal, but it has made a big difference for a friend of mine in Atlanta. He has much more normal A1C readings now, and he's dropped about 15 pounds in the last 3 months. Just putting that out there.

    I am sorry to hear you sound so low. I hope something changes for you very quickly. I wish I could make it better, or help somehow.
    1559 days ago
    I see an endocrinologist every six months due to the PCOS. They check hormones and thyroid. Everything's normal.
    1563 days ago
    Don't give up. Maybe step away for a day or two but don't give up. I am not a medical professional, but have you had your hormone levels checked? Maybe a visit to a nurse practitioner who specializes in endocrine disorders could help. Also, have you ever heard of Women to Women. A website full of information. —
    Good luck!
    1563 days ago
  • SHODGE48
    Sorry I mean put if you put your mind on it.
    1565 days ago
  • SHODGE48
    Did you go to god and pray you can do it out your mind to it. Read a book about Troy Johnson The Shift it is a great book
    1565 days ago
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