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Did I do that?

Thursday, October 08, 2015

Nope I did not do anything! That's my problem. As of late I'm finding myself getting more and more sedentary. My bones are feeling it. My muscles are feeling it. Why do you ask? I can't really answer that. I've been on SP for about 6 years. I've gained and lost the same 40 lbs almost every year. I can't figure out why I'm not able to continue losing. I'm not a binge eater. I watch what I eat (for the most part, there are free days). I exercise too. I'm beginning to think I'm not cut out for this anymore. I'm beginning to lose my mojo and it's taking its toll on my spirit. I've been thinking about taking a break from SP. I've let a lot of things go in my life to be a part of SP. I'm on here every morning.

Don't get me wrong I love this site. My house has been in upheaval for the past year. First Jim coming and going. Then back with Mike (boyfriend of the past five years, accept when Jim came back for a few months). Mike moved in again with me in July. I knew he was only here until he could find his own apartment. That happened this past two weeks and last night was my first night by myself again. And you know what? I slept good for the first time in over a year.

My sleep pattern has been off. My eating and exercising off. I'm hoping that somewhere in the midst of this chaos I can find somewhere to go for myself. Today I am taking everything out of my smaller bedroom. I am going to set up my gazelle and my recumbent bike as a go-to-place daily. I really know I have to try keep myself in the game even if I feel like I just can't go on any further. Somewhere, somehow this has to finally work.

Just for kicks ~
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  • RHOOK20047
    DON'T QUIT, that will solve nothing! I know where you are coming from. But remembe this is a lifelong change. I find that I have to keep changing things up. I want to make a pledge with you now! I won't quit, if you don't quit! We can get through this dry spell. Set up that exercise room and start small and build up. You can do it! Together we will become the losers we are meant to be! Have a blessed weekend!

    1472 days ago
    Love that you are setting up an exercise room - that is a major start
    1472 days ago
    sometimes we just need peace
    you can do it hang in there
    1472 days ago
  • JOANN1212
    Hang in there!!

    1472 days ago
  • no profile photo ELRIDDICK
    Thanks for sharing
    1472 days ago
  • 19CENT67
    Stay in the moment and focus on what you can do today.
    1472 days ago
  • no profile photo JJARMOSS
    You got this.
    1472 days ago
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