Thursday, October 01, 2015
Well, after seeing myself on camera today, I'm in a complete spiral of self-doubt. It's pretty heavy... I have no idea why the person I am dating loves me. I don't love me. I don't love anything about how I look. Why does he? He probably doesn't. My brain isn't good.
In other news, I planned on going to the gym tonight, but I'm sufficiently sick. Sneezing, sniffles, coughing, ear ache... the whole 9 yards. And let me tell you, I certainly want to take advantage of the "feed a cold" mentality. I'm fighting that urge right now...
I'm feeling pretty sorry for myself right now. Looking for the silver lining, but all I see is damaged goods.