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Pity Party

Thursday, October 01, 2015

Well, after seeing myself on camera today, I'm in a complete spiral of self-doubt. It's pretty heavy... I have no idea why the person I am dating loves me. I don't love me. I don't love anything about how I look. Why does he? He probably doesn't. My brain isn't good.

In other news, I planned on going to the gym tonight, but I'm sufficiently sick. Sneezing, sniffles, coughing, ear ache... the whole 9 yards. And let me tell you, I certainly want to take advantage of the "feed a cold" mentality. I'm fighting that urge right now...

I'm feeling pretty sorry for myself right now. Looking for the silver lining, but all I see is damaged goods.
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  • BRIAEL
    This is the cold talking, Paula. Roll with it, those negative self-worth feelings will pass with the infection. Focus on healthy foods and lots of water - you know the drill !

    The reason your man is with you is because you are awesome and he is attracted to the whole package. Let me ask you this: is HE perfect or does he have some minor flaws that make you love him even more?

    The thing about anxiety and depression is that they come back when you are mentally low and they crowd out all the positivity of what you've achieved and rob you of the joy of living.

    Feel better, lady. :)

    990 days ago
  • KRISKECK
    You are not your body, your body is the vessel in which you reside. Your true value is calculated without regard to that vessel. Be as kind to yourself as you are to others. Sending hugs and healing wishes your way.

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    991 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    Right now you are ill with some medical disruption, pity party should only last for a very short time. Yes, the time to stay away from the gym is now, get the rest and fluids you need. Don't be so tough on yourself. As for someone loving you, that is what someone does love you for you. You have to love yourself too as you are, then start working on a plan for you to get to feeling good about yourself--you are worth it.
    991 days ago
  • CAROKNITS
    Oh, hugs to you. Or perhaps a Kleenex and some hot lemon tea would be more appreciated. I am feeling emotionally rotten too ... Hang in there, and it will pass. I'm trying to stop myself when I start thinking in a negative spiral by either Ye Olde Non-Caloric Distraction (a good book) or else telling myself positive things. And then catch myself when I get going again.

    991 days ago
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