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Over and Over Again.

Thursday, October 01, 2015

Starting over is never easy. For some reason, well for many reasons, I keep letting my weight get the best of me. There is so much that goes into why I weigh what I weigh. It isn't just about the food. It is about the mindset, the depression, the addiction to the sweets and soda, the desire to look as unworthy as I feel.

I need for things to be different. I know they are not different because I haven't made the move for them to be. Restarting is never an easy thing to do because in my minds eye I see it as a failure in the past.

I don't want to stop smoking because I don't want to gain weight when the reality of it is if I was watching what I was eating, counting calories, and doing what was right for myself the weight wouldn't be so much of an issue. if nothing else I could keep myself from gaining it while transitition from smoking to be smoke free.

The money I would save from not smoking would be huge on a monthly basis. Not eating out for lunch but rather bringing something healthy to work would be huge, too.

I really need to do this. I really want to do this. I am just scared to death to get started again.
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    If I had a choice, I would first try to quit your smoking habit. It'll kill you if you keep it up.
    1511 days ago
    It is all right to be SCARED !!
    But try NOT to let fear control YOU..

    Maybe you would be happier if you edged your way into the pool,,,
    rather than jumping off the cliff into the pool.

    You would not expect a green broke horse to be a champion barrel racer without training over a respectable amount of time...
    Give yourself the same consideration while retraining yourself from where you are to where you want to be.
    I have faith in you... YOU can be anything you want to be, IF you are willing to put in the time and effort. YOU can do this!! (end lecture)
    1511 days ago
    Don't look at it as all or nothing. EVERY day is a fresh start and some days will be better than others.

    Just commit to RIGHT NOW. Tomorrow you do it again.

    You CAN do this, one we day at a time.
    1512 days ago
  • KATEJ17
    do it. Start again . As soon as you see even the smallest progress you will be greatly motivated. Start-overs are blessings and always there ..,you can do it! Stop smoking now . Choose life and buy yourself a gift with some of that saved money!
    1512 days ago
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