Thursday, October 01, 2015
Well, I've proven I'm not much of a blogger. To say I have struggled over the past year is an understatement. I did not anticipate the difficulty of the transition that faced me when my youngest left the nest and went to Africa for his mission and we moved from our home of over 14 years leaving all my friends and of course the familiar and comfortable. Depression has been my constant companion over this past year and I have really struggled to really keep my head above water. It all seemed to come to a head in September. I really ran my health off into the weeds. I gained the few pounds back that I lost and my blood sugar numbers and blood pressure are not good!! HOWEVER, I'm still here and I woke up this morning grateful to be alive and thrilled that it is October, my favorite month EVER! I woke up and decided before I ever got out of bed that I am going to shelve any sadness, grief, loneliness, frustration, disappointment, etc. until after this glorious month is over. I'm not going to worry about "fixing" any of it. I am simply going to put it all aside and enjoy every day of this fun month by finding fun ways to move my body, pamper myself instead of condemn myself and have faith that all things will work out!
First thing I did this morning was go out to my pumpkin patch and pick my one ginormous pumpkin, take pics of it and set it on my porch. I then got out my yummy pumpkin scented candle and filled my home with that yummy fall smell. Then, I closed my eyes and said a silent prayer of gratitude. Happy October everyone!