Saturday, September 26, 2015
Wow. I decided to check in and see when my last blog was. March. March.
I can't believe it.
That was right about the time that things began slowing down for me. Hubby didn't get recalled to work after his father's passing, I started worrying about our family finances so I took work in June. I now see that in spite of what I said, I am struggling to keep up with my healthy journey. I get home from work absolutely exhausted and it's difficult to find the time I need to take care of myself.
I'm feeling overwhelmed again......The clutterbug is winning and I feel stuck. I manage to stay on top of my studies and that's one great thing in all of this. I'm grateful that I donated all of the clothes that I shrank out of; I have no reason not to take this slide seriously.
So what's a gal to do?
One thing I'm trying not to do is beat myself up. That won't accomplish anything, and I certainly don't need the negativity that comes along with it. I am worthy and I think that I've forgotten that while I've been dealing with the needs of others at work.
A paradigm shift is in order, and that's where I'm at tonight. I simply can't and won't go back to where I was. I never felt better when I was working to make myself healthier and I need that more than ever right now.
So I will shut down the voice of my ego, and stop making excuses why I'm not doing the work. I simply haven't made myself the priority I need to and that stops today.
I love the feeling that I have control over the negative influences in my environment.
I love when my pants feel too loose.
I love walking into my closet and randomly grab clothes; not worrying about how they'll look when I put them on.
I love the feeling of accomplishment of completing difficult workouts.
I love the extra energy I have when I exercise.
I love feeling complete.
These are all very good reasons to get back on track.
Tomorrow is day 2.