Saturday, September 26, 2015
So, good morning world. Another week flown by... so much drama packed in, it's almost unbelievable. Sad to see that 6:30am is still pitch black outside... summer has faded away. Bring on fall, my favorite.
I'm sitting here sipping my decaf coffee with the windows open, taking advantage of the fact there are few airplanes flying overhead at this time of day. Quiet. I hear the crickets chirping their song, as well as the occasional bird. The click-clack of the keyboard is keeping me company this morning, allowing my thoughts to flow out from my fingers.
I've made progress over the past couple of years... not with my physical health, necessarily, but with my mental health. Turns out, it's the bigger of the two battles. I'm in partial remission for my eating disorder, and my depression/anxiety has been reclassified as Stress Response Syndrome - basically I experience acute symptoms of depression/anxiety in response to coping with stress triggers in my life. Even this is a step forward, and probably a more accurate diagnosis given my current state of mind.
It's been a difficult couple of weeks, with a family member being hospitalized and me being unable to see my boyfriend because he works so much. It's left me with a lot of time to myself. Too much time to think.
I invested in a month's worth of Raw Fit. I'm going to work on supplementing my day/workouts with Raw Fit daily in an effort to curb my hunger. In the past, I've had to cut back quite severely in order to get a handle on my appetite... I'm going to try a gentler approach this time.
Instead of just going to the gym, I've been thinking about going to the gym and formulating a plan about it. That's not working either...
The good news is that I've maintained my weight over the past 6 months... it's better than gaining, even if I didn't lose.
Lots of random thoughts this morning. Apple picking in my backyard at dawn.