2 Kinds of
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
I feel like I have turned another corner. It was a crazy day. Very little went as planned both at work and at home. As the pressures of the day mounted I realized one of the major points of stress was I began feeling I was not going to get my run in. I had the nagging feeling that I had to run today.
Six weeks ago I started the Couch to 5K program and I "had to" run because it was part of the program and I was committed to running a race. I acted like there were Couch to 5K police who would enforce sticking to the plan. Like there was a penalty to deviating. I was running because I made the decision to complete the program, but not because I wanted to run or enjoyed running.
Today, however, I "had to" run for me. I gave myself 2 days of rest after the race and I really wanted to get back at it. I now feel good when I finish a run. Not like I have checked something off my to-do list, but rather a true sense of satisfaction and pure enjoyment. (definitely my feelings at the end of the run, not during).
I know getting my run in before anything else would make days like today less stressful but I am not there yet. I am a runner, but not a morning runner. Yet.