Tuesday, September 22, 2015
We were down to one child left at home. We had gone through the grief of the oldest leaving when she turned 18 (8 years ago). We grieved/worried when our middle daughter dropped out of college and married a guy to help him get his greencard. Then there was one...with 5 years left with our youngest. She had been a dream until her junior year when she started dating...and she changed, finally entered the dreaded teen phase. DH and I found ourselves looking forward to empty nest. Two weeks ago, her boyfriend broke up with her and she went a little crazy. After a short hospitalization, we (all 3 of us) decided she should go live with her granny and finish her senior year in another school. Though she is only 30 minutes away and we are on good terms, still communicating and having the opportunity to love on her, this is a lot harder than we expected. The absence of tension in our home is not enough to fill the emptiness we feel. It should be enough that hubs & i can now focus on each other for the first time in our marriage. But grief takes time. We know that from experience and we are trying to embrace every emotion that goes with it, but we are struggling. Everything we do takes so much energy...exercising (must do it even though it doesn't make me feel good), cooking meals, coming to work, being around people (and I'm a huge extrovert), etc. We will continue to approach our days with prayer and gentleness, but it's good to write this out. To admit we are struggling and that's normal.