Blarg - Starting Over? Getting back on the horse?
Thursday, September 17, 2015
Okay. So here it is. 2015. September 2015.
And I survived 2014. 2014 - a year when my mother passed away, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years, lived like a gypsy between apartments and my childhood home, got back together with said boyfriend, only to break up again after the holidays. And throughout all of that, I somehow maintained a weight of around 185lbs.
Last March I went to Italy. And only put on like 3 pounds while over there. I ate like a champ, but my friend and I walked EVERYWHERE. The real trouble was coming back home - and eating like I was still on vacation. Everything in Italy is so fresh and flavorful. Why would I ever eat a boring whole grain something or other when white Italian bread is so damn tasty. Low fat cheese? Why bother. I want to taste life. And that comes with the price of a 10lb weight gain.
Now all I do is feel how unhealthy my body is becoming. I sleep restlessly, my fingers are swollen when I wake up. I snore like a bear with diabetes in an allergen filled cave. I breathe heavily everyday when I trek up my four story walk up and spend the next five minutes huffing and puffing and resolving to never leave the apartment again. I can feel how unhealthy I am, and I hate it.
So here I am. Around 195. Living in my own apartment, taking care of my cat, seeing someone new. And it is time to get my health back under control. Time to utilize my free gym membership from my job. Time to take evening walks in the park I live one block away from. And when I'm lazy and don't want to leave my apartment - use the internet, spark people, youtube, for exercise videos, even if they are only 10 minutes or so. I'm tired of being tired; I can watch Netflix while I use a treadmill; I have to stop making excuses of being too tired. I'll feel better if I do it. Just do it.
Also - I subscribed to Fabletics - and these clothes are just damn cute. No more using them for lounge wear. Time to use them at the gym.