Why the struggle???
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
For two years I tried to change my eating habits - I paid almost $200 a month for a personal trainer to tell me how to eat and how to exercise. Did that work? Yes and no. I lost 50 lbs, several inches, but the dog gone struggle over food remains! Will it ever go away? Will it even lessen? Will there ever be a day when I won't wake up thinking about hitting the drive thru for a McDevil meal and sugar laden coffee? Will I be able to walk down the sweet aisle at the grocery store without drooling over the chocolate? I'm tired...so very, very tired of it all. I'm tired of tracking food only to see the number on the scale go up and up and up week after week. I'm tired of exercising to the point of exhaustion only to be too pooped to do anything else - the more I exercise, the messier my house is, the less leisurely walks I want to take with the husband or kids, etc. I keep looking for answers - so many are out there! I feel like unless I shut myself up in a closet and just slam a medicine ball all day I will never lose weight and be healthy. And why, oh why, does every darn church event center around gobs and gobs of greasy, sugary food? Can we not have fellowship without thousands of calories? Ugh. And there is my mindset today...frustration...weakness
...questioning and second guessing.