How many times do I have to start over?
Sunday, September 06, 2015
I'm tired of starting over. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of not having any energy. I'm tired of being sick. I'm tired of doctor appointments and medications. I'm tired of being tired!!!!
I've struggled with my weight and with my health for years. I love food. I love sleeping. I hate sweating. I hate dieting.
My kids are the main reason I care. I stopped caring about myself when I got too sick to do the things I enjoy.
I developed food allergies in my mid twenties and gained 60 pounds in just over a month taking prednisone. None of my clothes fit. I went from a 12/14 to an 18. I got back down to s 16 a few times but always go back to an 18.
In 2006, I was in a 16 when I got pregnant with my first son. I gained weight with the pregnancy. I was high risk and only worried about my son's health.
I lost weight again in 2007. Then, I got sick again. I had Lyme Disease and a co-infection of it called Babesiosis. I was put on a medication that made me feel great and I started working out and doing good.
Then, I was taken off the medication and I got worse. I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Inflammatory Arthritis, Tendonitis, Bursitis and High Blood Pressure.
I ended up losing weight and working out again in 2011. I was doing great.
In 2012, I was pregnant with my second son and gained to end up weighing more than I ever had in my life.
I lost weight again in 2013. I was doing great until some things caused me a lot of stress in 2014. That sent me back into emotional eating. Since then, I haven't lost any significant amount of weight.
I'm starting over again. I want this to be my last time to start over. I want to completely change my life. Not just my weight.
There are other goals I want to accomplish and there are many things I want for my kids.
For myself, I want to feel good. I want to go on day trips and not be limping in pain by the end of the day.
I want to improve my health and hopefully get off done medications. I want to live a normal life.
There are many things I want to do. Here is my list...
#1. I want to lose 25 pounds by the end of the year.
#2. I want to improve my financial situation by February, 2016.
#3. I want to start an arts and crafts business by Spring 2016.
#4. I want to lose 50 pounds by March 31, 2016.
#5. I want to take my kids on vacation by April 30, 2016.
#6. I want to lose 75 pounds by July 1, 2016.
#7. I want to lose 100 pounds by October 24th, 2016. That is my youngest son's birthday. That is the most weight I would want to lose. I wasn't that thin in high school so it is a pretty big goal.
#8. I want to completely have my financial situation under control by December 31, 2016.
#9. I want to have savings and a Plan B in 2017.
#10. I want to take my kids on a second vacation by April 30, 2017.