How do you see yourself?
Sunday, September 06, 2015
I'm at home, watching "My 600 Pound Life" and in my mind, that's how I see myself. I weighed in at 212 lbs today, but I see myself as the woman on tv that weighs over 600 lbs. Why is that? I haven't been as motivated lately to eat right and workout because somehow I feel like even losing the weight won't make me happy. I'll have all this extra skin and I'll think of myself as looking like a freak still. I hate feeling this way. I wish I could be motivated, I wish I could just make myself do the right things. I'm so tired of being in this body. I'm so disgusted with myself. I feel like other people are disgusted when they see me. It's just gross to be this way.