Life happens whether you participate or not.
Tuesday, September 01, 2015
Man oh man. I swear I blinked and nearly 2 years passed, no ish, seriously 2 years!!! How the heck does that happen? It seemed like at one moment I was simply struggling to keep my marriage on track, figure out what my new career path would be after finishing my final degree and of course fighting what seemed like a never ending battle to hit my goal weight. Oh and did I mention fighting my ever growing battle against depression? And then BAM! Next thing I knew, The universe decided to throw me a few more curve balls in the shape of my oldest getting pregnant at 16, my job deciding to downsize, my family arguing over my brothers estate, health issues for me in the form of an inoperable brain aneurysm and my marriage sinking further into 'do we really want to keep doing this land?'. This is the part where I am supposed to tell you my focus to get skinny seriously went on the back burner...it sort of did, but not really...
I kept working out, but I self sabotaged by drinking heavily. Spoiler alert that ish seriously hampers weight loss.
So long story short ; my oldest is thriving as a mom and I adore my grandbaby. My marriage is still intact, we are working on it day to day. That dark spot on my cat scans and MrIs hasn't changed so that's good. I have a new job, it's not my dream job but hey the bills are paid. And I've battled and seem to be winning against my addiction with alcohol to get back on track with losing weight...next thing to get right and tight is my nutrition. I swear 1700 calories a day was easy to hit when I was drinking and eating junk food, but damn is it hard to hit with healthy food! Why is that?!
This has kind of turned into a ramble, next blogs will be noticeably shorter, once I get the hang of this again. I'm just happy to be back to fully participating in life, that's all.