I just ate 500 calories in chocolate :/
Wednesday, August 19, 2015
I'm not very happy about it, but I consciously did it. I had a light lunch, and I had more healthy options in my mini-fridge at work. Something stressed me out at work, and of course instead of making the healthy choice, I went straight to the chocolate. Oh, there were so many things I could have done instead of eating all that candy. i could have gotten up and taken a walk, I could have gone outside. I could have eaten the healthy food. Even though, if I went outside, I'd most likely go to smoke a cigarette. :/ I could have done a lot of things, but I didn't. I'm not sure why I do this. I think I may be justifying it in my head, "Well, that stressed me out, so I don't care, I'm just going to eat it anyway." 500 calories is significantly smaller than any "binge" I've been on before, so maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it's a good thing that I'm stopping now to blog about it. I don't know, but I hope that one of these years, I'll stop this cycle. Lately, I've gone 5 days of meeting my food tracking goals, and 2 days I'll go way over. I even calculated the average of my calories and it seems that I'm averaging enough calories to maintain my current weight. Maintaining is better than gaining, I feel, even though I'd rather be losing.
Anyway, vent over. Time to move on...again....