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I just ate 500 calories in chocolate :/

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

I'm not very happy about it, but I consciously did it. I had a light lunch, and I had more healthy options in my mini-fridge at work. Something stressed me out at work, and of course instead of making the healthy choice, I went straight to the chocolate. Oh, there were so many things I could have done instead of eating all that candy. i could have gotten up and taken a walk, I could have gone outside. I could have eaten the healthy food. Even though, if I went outside, I'd most likely go to smoke a cigarette. :/ I could have done a lot of things, but I didn't. I'm not sure why I do this. I think I may be justifying it in my head, "Well, that stressed me out, so I don't care, I'm just going to eat it anyway." 500 calories is significantly smaller than any "binge" I've been on before, so maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it's a good thing that I'm stopping now to blog about it. I don't know, but I hope that one of these years, I'll stop this cycle. Lately, I've gone 5 days of meeting my food tracking goals, and 2 days I'll go way over. I even calculated the average of my calories and it seems that I'm averaging enough calories to maintain my current weight. Maintaining is better than gaining, I feel, even though I'd rather be losing.

Anyway, vent over. Time to move on...again....
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    Venting is huge, and letting it go is key. Learning new tools to cope and compensate happen over time. Regardless, I am pretty confident I will never be perfect even with all my tools in my arsenal. Choice by choice we learn to live a healthier lifestyle...look at how far you have come! Get it girl....;~)
    2072 days ago
  • EABL81
    We've all been there, done that. Good for you for stopping to blog instead of continuing down that road. It's a constant battle, and one I'm stilling fighting too, but you're on the right track!

    2073 days ago
    I feel you, I made poor choices today too :( Not chocolate but still poor choices. Our poor choices are done and over with now. No looking back, just move forward and make better choices tomorrow. We can do this!!!
    2073 days ago
  • THEVOW2013
    Girl, blog when you get pissed or write it in a journal. The cycle will stop when you replace the food behavior with another behavior as I suggested. I use to be you. I wanna tell ya YOU can do this also check out OA I love my live meetings and now am enjoying phone meetings , too. OA.Org
    Its so very good you are now conscience of what your doing and that you track your food intake.

    I am here for you inbox me your number we can talk.

    2073 days ago
    i am guilty of self sabotage too when someone or something stresses me out I am likely to turn to comfort food. Admitting to the problem is first step to preventing it next time. Drink some extra water. Adjust your calories And move forward!
    2073 days ago
    Your honesty is important. You can start a new day any time today. You don't have to wait until tomorrow. Best wishes
    2073 days ago
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    It's done, it's in the past. Don't beat yourself up over it...DON'T promise yourself it won't happen again...that's unrealistic...but move on!
    Have a lighter dinner, and tomorrow...begin again emoticon
    2073 days ago
  • FREETJE123
    I have done this too! But it is great you could write about here. It's over now, nothing you can change about it, just going back to healthy eating. Everybody has a setback once in awhile, no shame in that! emoticon
    2073 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/19/2015 3:34:23 PM
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