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Turning point

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Do you ever feel like sometimes on this journey it's all for nothing? Like you are doing all this work and watching what you eat but still nothing happens? That's how I was starting to feel early last week. I was tired and frustrated and just sort of feeling like I wasn't making progress.

And then BOOM! I made all sorts of progress seemingly over night. O.K. I know it wasn't over night but all of a sudden I could actually SEE my progress. It showed on the scale, a couple of my shirts were too big on me and I felt like Rocky when I was exercising.

I went to Zumba last Wednesday and actually felt good. I wasn't out of breath after the first song and I kept up. I found myself doing moves I thought I would never be able to physically do such as really deep squats or fast movements involving my knees. It didn't hurt.

And I ran way more at the gym than I have so far. I don't know if it's Zumba that's improving my fitness or almost two months of consistent exercise but I don't think I've ever felt this way before. I'm glad I haven't turned away and I think deciding this time to vary my cardio instead of all my days at the gym was one of the best decisions I've ever made for a healthy lifestyle.

I'm still struggling emotionally with things though and wonder if I'll ever figure that piece out. I have moments and even days where I just don't feel good enough. I feel less than. Inadequate. I'm disappointed in who I am sometimes. I feel like I should be more successful and probably find a boyfriend at some point. I'm emotionally stuck and I don't know how to unstick.
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    Happens to me frequently. I'll have 1-2 weeks where I don't lose any weight or even gain several pounds, then all of a sudden one morning it's all gone and I'm down even lower than I was.

    Human bodies are weird.
    1184 days ago
    2 months is amazing! I am on 3 weeks now of going to the gym and I am so pumped that I have been going for even this long. It's an accomplishment to me, in discipline if nothing else. Although you did eventually see the rewards, even if you hadn't just think of what power you need to reign in to hit that gym regularly for so long. So many have given up long before then! Lots to be proud of!
    1188 days ago
    The emotional part is hard, but continuing your workouts certainly won't be a bad thing. It is so hard to remember in the beginning that sticking with your workouts will eventually lead to what you want. I have been there before so many times... might even be there some right now as I am trying to get back on track after the wedding.
    1189 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    It is hard to get emotionally "unstuck", but I find that feeling better physically translates to feeling better emotionally. If I don't work out at all one week, the next week my emotional state is worse. Fitness doesn't fix everything, but I find that it does make other things easier to deal with.

    I've had the same experience. Working out consistently and feeling like I'm getting nowhere, and then suddenly realizing that the hard work is actually paying off. It's a great feeling!
    1189 days ago
    I just read this blog after leaving my comment on your Spark Page, and I know those feelings you wrote about in the last paragraph of your blog only too well. I don't know why it is, but I am always so encouraging when friends fail to reach their goals, can always find something to say that will help them feel better about themselves, but I am only just learning to treat myself as gently.

    I guess like all things in life, to learn not to think a certain way about ourselves is something that takes time to become a habit, and it takes effort too. Yes, there will be good days when we find it easy, but there will also be the odd day here and there, hopefully only rarely, when we struggle to stay positive. The thing to remember is that WE ARE WORTH THE EFFORT.

    Take care, and be kind to yourself. None of us are perfect.
    1189 days ago
    It's all the hard wirk that is paying off. Just enjoy it.
    1189 days ago
    Yay! Now that's a real NSV!

    I think progress is often not steady and can come in fits and starts. Good for you for hanging in there and keeping at it so that it's finally starting to pay off!
    1189 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Lets be happy.
    1189 days ago
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    1189 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    You are so pretty.
    1189 days ago
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