Wednesday, August 12, 2015
It gets frustrating to always feel like I'm restarting, but I don't care because as long as I'm restarting I haven't quit trying and that,to me, is the most important thing! To never say "being out of shape and unhealthy is acceptable"...because it isn't! Whatever "weight" a person is, that doesn't matter, what matters is fitness level, heart health, and how active in life a person is. Am I actively participating in life or passively sitting, watching life happen to others while I eat myself into oblivion...I want an active life. I have not chosen that, so far, and I keep trying but not really. I have not whole heartedly committed myself to participating in life, and I am now 43. Well, that statement is not entirely true, I whole heartedly committed to my life until I moved to where I live now. That move, stopped me. I got married, had kids, but that's all. I don't feel like there is anything here for me outside of my marriage and kids. The things I like aren't available here and I have used that as my excuse to not live but to just exist. And existing means sitting and eating. But, here is where I am staying (15 yrs already), so here is where I need to find activities to bring me back to life.
It's not about losing weight, it's about choosing to be an active participant in life. Find activities to enjoy and engage in, it's about having a fit body and a fit mind and a happy soul. Am I committed? I don't know, but I am trying to be! I want a Life not just an existence.