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The road taken - Every day new day

Monday, August 10, 2015

So... Being on the road is really hard for my "diet" comfort, really hard for my Rhythm.
Steady On, for me, requires a kind of PRACTICE, a kind of discipline and rhythm and momentum. There are habits that work for keeping my food choices on point for weight loss. There are habits of behaviors that keep me centered and keeping up with daily tasks while keeping my moods and anxieties kind of steady...

I still turn to food when other soothing attempts fail. Food takes the edge off.
But only at first.

Because...

I REALLY REALLY
I mean I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT

to take off more layers of cushion and weight.
to be more lean and muscular
to integrate activity
to learn NEW STEPS, NEW WAYS of BEING ME....

ONE DAY AT A TIME
IT CAN BE DONE
It's easier when there's not conflict or drama, when I can plan and track my meals...
When I have peace of mind... and time to connect with

YOU
You know who you are.

I made a lot of 'right' choices today.
But i made some bad ones too.
I knew it was a bad idea to buy a Honey Lavender Scone on the way home tonight
I knew it was not likely to stay in the bag til breakfast tomorrow
I ate it in the elevator on the way up (for crying out loud)
I woofed it!
Woofing is a very clear sign.
I threw out the unwooFed remainder in the hall garbage can
and went into my mom's apartment

Too many days being a guest in various peoples homes
Too many meals out

FORGIVE
I'll be traveling back to my regular routine SOON
I have loved seeing people and visiting
It's been a lot of fun

Walking and chewing gum at the same time?
Still not able to do that, I guess.
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  • BONNIEMARGAY
    I love the compassion I read in your witnessing. You will make it.
    1161 days ago
  • MILPAM3
    It's stressful staying in another's home. You don't want to make yourself too comfortable, nor do you want to have to ask for everything you want or can't find. You walk a fine line between being there to enjoy the other person's company and watching your P's and Q's. Home can be a relaxing sanctuary. You'll be back to normal soon.
    Lavender in a scone? Sounds heavenly. Maybe in a mini muffin next time?
    1161 days ago
  • AAAACK
    I know. I know. I hate it when I've eaten something, maybe just to have control over one aspect of me, or to rail against something, or comfort myself, or whatEVER, and then after it I'm like, ah...did I even taste that? sheesh. So, if there's any comfort in knowing many of us have done that, I'm here to provide it. :)
    1162 days ago
  • BIGMAMAT
    Thanks for sharing your struggle Paula. One woman's scone is another woman's doughnut. Control goes out the window. Good choice in pitching the uneaten portion.
    Love the time with family, difficult to be away from home.
    Love routine.
    Love what works.
    Looking forward to my egg /veggie scramble in the morning.
    Keep your eyes on the prize beautiful friend. xoxoxo T emoticon
    1162 days ago
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