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Clingy fabric breeds insecurity.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Today I woke up and thought, "Today is definitely a sweatpants day." Then my mom called. My niece is getting married, and my mom asked me to go with her dress shopping. It made me feel like I should wear something a tiny bit nicer than joggers. I tried on this dress and decided it looked pretty good. You can see that it isn't very fitted in the bust or at the waist anymore, but sometimes when I turned I could see my tummy pressing against the fabric.

I am having an insecure day. I know that I definitely fit in this dress better than when I purchased it. It is not as snug, but sometimes I still struggle with having those insecure days where I critique every part of my body. I thought about wearing a jacket to create a different eye flow, but then I noticed my arms. They are looking pretty nice-so I didn't want to cover them up. Plus it is going to be 85 officially with 96% humidity. Ain't nobody got time for a jacket in that kind of mugginess.

I got to work, and caught my reflection, then cringed. I saw it again-my trouble area. I keep workout clothes at work because I often use the elliptical, go walking, or lift weights during my hour away from the computer. I made the conscious decision to change clothes. I feel much better.

It is silly having these cycles of feeling amazing about your body, and then being insecure an instant later. Suddenly noticing the way a fabric can cling to your body in an unflattering way can change your day. I believe that it is silly because we have all made progress with our goals. I've lost weight, and am currently at my lowest weight since I can ever remember. Even in high school I avoided the scale like the plague, but I am wearing smaller jeans than at that point in my life. (high school was 9 years ago for me, 13 since I was a freshman).

It must just be one of those days.
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    aww thank you ladies!
    1666 days ago
  • NKING1982
    I have those days too. I try not to be so hard on myself, and you shouldn't either. It takes time to get where you want to be. One step at a time. Just remember how far you have come. You can do this
    1666 days ago
    Yes, we all have good days and bad days regarding our self-image. I hate those times I feel awful or insecure. I try to reason it out in my mind. Where did you start? Look at how far you've come. Be proud and confident in yourself. Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes it takes longer to infiltrate that insecure feeling but eventually it turns around and I go to feeling I look great and being super confident about the way I look.
    1666 days ago
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