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Let's do this......

Monday, July 27, 2015

Yesterday on FB...I had posted that I had gone grocery shopping and I was excited for the week ahead.....I had spent the time to plan and prep for this upcoming week. I was positive....I was excited. A childhood friend left a comment that she needed me back in her life for she had null motivation.

I was taken aback. It quite frankly ....depressed me. I thought of my friend. I have known her since I was a small child....even before school. We lived across the street from one another till I was 17 when my family moved. Kathleen was devastated. I am three years older and Kathleen was like my little sister....I included her in most everything I did. That changed with our move.

My memories started to fleet back to those old stomping grounds. There were not many kids our age for my brother and myself. We had each other......and Kathleen and another neighborhood kid....Terri. We would ride our bikes everywhere.....and I mean everywhere. Couldn't do that now with our traffic and growth in our town....so our childhood was grand.

I thought of those bike rides....those adventures. Do you ever see a group...or a family riding their bikes and there is one LONE biker trailing so far behind? That was me. Always me. I see bikers now ...and .....I see that one person far behind...and I smile.

I do smile...for that person...like me....wants to go......and even though they cannot keep up...they...still pedal....and do the best they can. They still have that grimace smile on their face all the same.

I felt ....so.....much like a fraud when I read Kathleen's post.

Yes...I am doing well......AGAIN....have been since June 9th...........what changed?

Several things......

I realized that it is okay to go on...even when a dear friend passes away......that there was a difference in ...going on ...as opposed to moving on. One simply in my opinion, just don't move on......for..things are never quite the same. The Second thing that changed.....I put a lot of thought into what i was willing to do.....to lose this weight once again. I formed a plan....and have stuck with it.

Sometimes I am overwhelmed if I think too much about it......like....somehow....dee
p down in my heart.......I won't truly change after all and go back to old ways........I do think this ...and wonder if this is the day.....I turn back.

Kathleen is void of motivation....would I lose mine once again?


This am....a friend of mine......whom I love dearly.......an online friend from the UP.....we just connect so much.....Brenda......she is positive....encouraging...and learning as well. She has two dogs....Duke and Winston.....Brenda posted something...that made me see the reality of it all....so simple......and yet...so profound.....



This is Winston......the older dog..the dog I love to death. He does not have as much energy as Duke.....yet..he still goes on their walks. His head is usually down....but ...he is going at his pace........he is enjoying himself........so much like me as a child riding my bike.

LET'S DO THIS......

Winston is...


what is so hard?


I don't think motivation is the answer.....at least not for me. For me...it is the willingness......to want to eat healthy ...and do what i can with fitness. I am not a body builder......I am not an athlete.........I am me.....SLOW....but hanging in there.

So...when I saw LET'S DO THIS........

MY THIS was...different than Brenda's THIS......hers was water...mine....was/is to ....continue my eating plan.

LET'S DO THIS.....eventually does become......THIS IS ME........at my own pace.....my own willingness......THIS IS MY NOW.
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  • SUNSHINE5268
    (((((((( love you sis, hugssssssssssss ))))))))))))
    1907 days ago
  • PRNCSCUP1-2FULL
    Wow, I missed this the first time around and caught that Sunshine responded and so I read it. Yes, going on and moving on.... Moving on has the implication of sort of neglecting the person who had such an impact on your life, but going on says I am going on even with the incredible hole in my heart left by you.... but, I am going on with you watching over me..... Hmmm, the words are not coming. But, I think you know what I am saying.... Bless Winston's inspiration! You are right! We all have to do this at our own pace with our own "equipment"! Thanks for yet another fabulous blog!!
    1909 days ago
  • SUNSHINE5268
    aawww what a touching and honest and open post.... thank you soooooooooooooo much for sharing..... I am also PROUD that you are remaining positive in your life,

    hugsssssssssssssssss emoticon
    1909 days ago
  • SWEETNEEY
    Keep focused - you've got it.
    1952 days ago
  • FUN2READ
    Good going.....Continue on your own path....

    Sometimes it takes a long time to find your way....to do what is best for you.....

    You are doing just that.....Keep at it.....
    1953 days ago
  • SHARONSPARKLE
    Everyone is dealing with something different, I agree! I loved your blog and say a little prayer for you. We all are struggling with something so may you continue to push through your something to succeed
    1957 days ago
  • HOLDINGMYOWN
    emoticon Lil' Sis
    And I agree totally that motivation is not the answer....for me neither!
    For me it is WANTING to do it...for me! not because even a Dr. Says you are too fat and need to lose weight...not because family keep asking when are you going to lose weight again...

    JUST leave me alone....and when I AM ready....I WILL do it because I WANT to....

    1957 days ago
  • HEARTOFCHRIST
    Let's do this! emoticon
    1957 days ago
  • PEGGYO
    I agree we each have a different this.

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    1957 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Good job. You're taking care of you and that's really awesome. It is hard after a loss to go on, and you are. Awesome!

    HUGS
    1957 days ago
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