Self medicating... in a good way
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
I had the coolest experience today. First, I pushed myself outside my comfort zone. Just a teeny bit, but it still counts. I went to Devil's Lake State Park--by myself.
I took the kids there a couple weeks ago and we had the BEST afternoon, hiking the rocks. I have been feeling a little off-kilter / emotional this week and decided that a hike might be something new to try as a "remedy" of sorts. (As opposed to gobbling obscene amounts of ice cream or chips!)
It worked amazingly.
It was a little embarrassing, showing up early in the morning (I still had to work a half day and it's an hour away from home). All the rock climber kids were arriving at the same time. You know, the preternaturally fit ones? Yeah. The ones who shimmy up the big rocks like mountain goats, carrying packs of gear? Ultimately, they paid me no mind, and I stayed out of their way. No biggie, other than a momentary twinge of "I'm old and out of shape and they might laugh at me!"
I went up to the top, around and down. Twice. The second time, I stayed at the top and meditated (really, just sat quietly surveying the view) for 15 minutes or so. A lot of stuff bubbled to the surface as I sat quietly. Not in a bad way... It was incredible. After a little while, I felt emptied out. Peaceful.
The quiet... being alone... sitting with my thoughts (as opposed to a zillion distractions, many of my own making) these are things that almost NEVER happen in my day to day life. It was a big dose of something I hadn't even realized I needed. I have to figure out how to get MORE of that into my life.