3 - Maintaining Momentum
Friday, July 17, 2015
Okay. So I alliterate a lot.
I figured it was time to start numbering my blog entries. I'm very inspired by some of the top bloggers who are on Day 1000+. I want to get there eventually!
As I type this, I'm currently drenched in sweat from my circuit training workout. I have a membership to FitStar, which I recommend to anyone who likes to do body weight training at home. I also did day 3 of the Workout at Home Challenge, so I'm sure to be sore tomorrow!
Today was an all around good day for staying active. I was asked to stay later at work to help account for someone who called out. Since I work an active retail job and I have all this energy from exercising and eating well, I figured it would be a good way to squeeze in some extra steps on my activity tracker. I ended the day at 32,117 steps. Not half bad, if I do say so myself!
Once again I tracked every bite with a new-found loyalty to my caloric integrity. Even when the thought crossed my mind that it was okay not to track for the rest of the night because I had a busy, exhausting day... I tracked anyway. I even bought some tasty little baby bell peppers, stuffed them with blend of light cream cheese, bread crumbs, and hot sauce and landed on a very tasty low-cal substitute for jalapeno poppers. It was a great snack to end the night with when I wanted to reach for buttered popcorn instead.
I've also realized what I friend I have in my new workout partner -- who will be teaching me how to lift the heavy things at the gym tomorrow. We met through his ad on Craigslist and I really didn't expect much to come of it. It turns out we're a lot alike in a lot of surprising ways for two strangers who found each other over a mutual interest solely based on outdoor activity. I suppose it makes sense that handful of hikes alone in the wilderness with another person has a way of bringing you closer together. He's invested himself in helping me succeed, which is something I've never experienced from another person before. As it turns out, helping people achieve their fitness goals brings him a lot of joy and satisfaction. It's like he's my personal fitness Mary Poppins, or something. Either way... his belief in me has helped me to realize that I owe that much and more to myself. I have to meet him at least halfway if he's going to be able to help me. I have to know that I can do it, and continue to want it. I don't want to be just another person he invests a lot of energy into just to be let down when they give up. If I can give him nothing else in return for his guidance and support, I need to give him my drive and my attention and let my success be both our reward.
I also need to keep supporting myself on my own, because I know I won't always be able to depend on him. Mary Poppins flies away in the end, and there's nothing that says he won't do the same -- perhaps even before we've finished.
Regardless of the outcome, I feel grateful to have found this kind of a friend. No one in my life -- aside from lovely fellow Sparkers -- has ever supported me in this way. Maybe it's because I've just never let myself feel vulnerable enough to let them. This may just be a lesson in how to love myself enough to trust that I can let people in without fearing they'll damage me somehow... that I don't always need to do it all by myself... that maybe I'm not made weaker by allowing someone to help me.
It's food for thought for me... something to chew on for awhile.