crawling out out of my shell
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
I went out of my comfort zone today. I wore tight capri leggings to my jog. Yes you might say, "what's the big deal". Well, to me it's a huge deal. You see, even back in the day when I was a "skinny" person, I hated my body. Wearing nice fitted clothes was not something I did, it made me feel uncomfortable to have people look at me and for a long time I hid behind big clothes that when I did wear fitted clothes, people often commented how tiny I was. I shied away from the attention, and I think that is one of the millions of reasons I gained weight. Well, I was talking to my best friend who I haven't seen in a long time, and she said I should take a risk, get out of my shell and get out of my comfort zone.
I felt really awkward, but I did it. I don't think the regulars at the park noticed but it's done and I survived. Now I have the confidence to do this again and who knows maybe take more risks along the way. I can't say that I am happy with myself and my life, another topic that my friend brought up. How is it she can tell when she hasn't even seen me!
Yeah I might not be happy and where I want to be, but I am working on it. I am slowly making a change and this time I feel it is coming from the inside out.