Lake of Childhood Dreams
Monday, July 13, 2015
What a wonderful vacation I've had! Reconnecting with family (our annual reunion is always around July 4th), beachcombing along the shore of Lake Michigan, riding my bike around, often with the company of my nephew from Portland who doesn't own a car and is (like so many in Portland) all about the bike and also catching up with dear old friends from high school and college.
I also met a challenge I held up for myself: Before leaving Michigan I would return to the lake of my childhood dreams, shed my shirt and SWIM! As a child I would spend my summers practically living in Lake Michigan as our home was only a couple blocks away. In the water my weight became an asset as I was so buoyant. I could swim until I was tired and simply float around on my back to rest. I loved to swim underwater especially, carefree, pretending at times to be a dolphin or to be swimming with dolphins.
As an adult I have sadly banned swimming for myself. At first avoiding going shirtless due to the self-consciousness of obesity and later, sadly, one of the few drawbacks to losing the weight I've lost has been the self-consciousness of loose skin. So after decades of not allowing myself to swim in Lake Michigan I vowed to return and swim in the lake at least once before my time in Michigan was over.
And as usual I procrastinated until the very last day. I dreaded this! But I was able to press on and engineered just the right way to do this: wait until it was near dinner-time and everyone around my parent's home was busy and scoot on down to the lake on my bike alone, walking to the most empty stretch of shore I could find...SUCCESS! No one around! Jumped in and WOO HOO!
It was wonderful! Laughed out loud over the shock of the cold and silliness of my reluctance all these years...!
Here's a weird side note: I've had a pacemaker since last March 2014 and my pacemaker results have been fine...up until this June. I have a history of atrial flutter which has been quiet until this June as my latest results are showing that I'm in afib approximately 50% of the time.
I didn't have a clue! My cardiologist said sometimes when this happens folks come in for a cardioversion...sort of an electrical jump start to restore proper cardiac rhythm. But since I was heading out for vacation I said I would pass on the cardioversion and see how things go. I'm sensing a possible fatigue, but am wondering if I'm overreacting as I've been busy driving long distances, biking and other activities. I ran all this by my cardiology NP and she didn't tell me I should limit my activities, just "it all depends on how you feel..."
Now I'm looking at a 3-day self-supported tour this upcoming weekend and wondering what to do. Life's too busy for this sorta stuff!