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Day 185

Saturday, July 04, 2015

emoticon I woke up on time with no alarm! Yay! Of course I was waking up every few hours last night, but still it is awesome that I got out of bed on time today! I'm going to go work out as soon as I'm done blogging, as I'm in no pain right now.

emoticon Read one of the featured blogs about a woman who lost over 200 pounds. She lost at a rate of 0.5-1 pound a week. This made me ask myself, if I lost only that much a week, would I be able to stick to it like she did? I wish my answer was yes, but it's I don't know. My goal is for only 1 pound a week, but in all honesty I want to lose more than that a week. It would take me over 2 years at that rate. I have to remind myself that this is a lifestyle change, not a quick fix. And that no matter how slowly I go, what matters is that I'm going. I can do this. I will do this.

emoticon What really helps me stay motivated is remembering that moment. That moment when I saw myself in the surveillance feed on the TV as I walked into the grocery store. I'd never noticed that TV before. I saw that I was almost as wide as the opening in the double doors as I walked in. Excuse me, as I waddled in. Yes, I waddled. And jiggled. I was a petite woman for most of my life so actually seeing how big I am was a blow to my heart. I have to get it into my head that I've not been petite since my last child was born in 2008. That's 6 years I've been obese. Instead of being obese I want to be obsessed. I want to work out and eat healthy like a mad woman; like a woman obsessed. I haven't done as well this week, gallbladder and time of month hitting me all at once.

emoticon So a liquid diet it is. Boo. I didn't stick to a liquid diet yesterday and I paid the price for it. So today I will stick to it. I will stick to it till Wednesday when I have my gallbladder removed and then I will slowly reintroduce solid food. A wise woman told me that you crave what you eat. I've been eating junk food, so I crave junk food. But I also crave veggies. Yes, I know, I'm weird, I crave vegetables. I have to eat fresh veggies everyday or I start to get sick feeling. Been that way since I was little. I was that kid that raided the vegetable bin, not the cookie jar. Or in my case raided the garden most of the time. Cucumbers, bell peppers, tomatoes and strawberries, it's a wonder Mom had any veggies to harvest. I think that will be a problem with my liquid diet. But we'll see.

I jiggle.

And waddle.

I'm obsessed. emoticon
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  • LINTPICKER
    It is always a battle, but you are correct in what we eat we crave! and cutting those bad foods out of our life is a battle, but victories begin to outnumber the losses before long. Keep up the good work! Best on your surgery!
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