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Still gaining. Back to basics

Friday, July 03, 2015

Since my surgeries have kept me down for 10 months now, and still keeping me down & blue, I have gained back 36 pounds. It sickens me because I worked so hard for that 60-pound loss. But here's the reality, I will not live on salads every day of my life like I did the last time. I can't exercise for 2 hours every day like I did the last time. I also have a husband (common law, but he's mine) to cook for and he's not doing the salad thing with me. So I just have to eat healthy. My mother cooks with butter... Lots of it. I use olive oil instead. I guess I'm just in a place where I've gained so much that I'm finding it hard to make plans to move ahead. I've bought larger clothes, dresses for the most part. I hate getting dressed, especially when I sit around all day in bed, getting up only when I have to go to the bathroom. I'm swelling up and I just know that when my custom-made wedding rings arrive, they won't fit. That's the big kick in the butt I need. Knowing my rings won't fit after MONTHS of waiting for them to be made. But I have been getting out of the house... On the boat. I lay out while he fishes for sharks. Yummy dinners, they make!!
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    Dear, dear Angela, you are pretty lucky to be alive and kicking, with the infections you had have beaten, right?
    It's VERY hard not get down in the dumps when you are bedridden and immobilized and in massive amounts of pain. Plus when you've regained weight that you worked so hard to lose, right?
    Truth is you probably did well not to put on 60 or 100 lbs. over the past year! Really.

    Up here where have different seasons I am finding that I can't fit into half of my shorts and summer tops, and I have major muffin top in the ones I can get into, so I feel you sister! I started to hate myself and have a pity party, but I realized that I have been on a boatload of prednisone and sick a lot, so that explains a lot of it.

    Lately I have been maintaining, so I am determined to reduce my calories by a few hundred a day and take these lbs. back off.
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    Well, welcome back, Dearie! Don't beat yourself up so much, just take it as a part of your journey. I could never work-out for 2 hrs./day either, with my RA body. To tell you the truth now, I've put most of my 70# loss, back on, so watch out, because this can happen to anyone. My Rheumy told me that I can't walk for alot of time because of harming my RA feet more. He wants me to get on the recumbent bike instead, so that's what I try to do. I'm still in my same clothes, but are wearing larger tops that I've had on hand too, that I love. My size 16 skirt is the same and tends to give with the elastic in the waistline. So we find what works, don't we?! We are still determined though to keep plugging away and chalk this all up as a learning experience and we will get down once again, with this attitude! I've thought of you lots! Am so happy for you and hubby-to-be!! emoticon
    Hugs, Karen
    1859 days ago
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