Today was a day full of temptations.
One of the first work emails I read this morning was letting us know that our company was chosen by Toppers as being allowed to order ANYTHING on the menu for 50% off this whole week. OMG.
Here's the thing about me. I don't really eat bad... most of the time. That is, until a thought comes into my head. People eating Qdoba makes me want it myself. Sister ordered fried chicken? Oh, I'll have a breast, I guess. I am not hungry, but the temptation of the vending machine that I pass no less than 30 times each and every day thwarts the "bad food" in my face and makes me want it. Can anyone relate?
For me, the idea of Toppers Pizza hasn't even crossed my mind in probably 6-10 months or so... until today. Every moment of my day today that I was not completely enthralled in my work (even those times when I was doing easy work) I thought about what I could order that wouldn't be *too* bad.
I didn't order. Today. I really have no desire to waste my money on garbage food that will not only be a BAD food decision but will honestly make me feel like absolute crap. I obsessed in my head. I even joked with a few coworkers asking what they were going to get... were they going to order? I thought about telling my coworkers that coordinate company lunches to order - you know, since it would be so cheap. WHY!??!
So today, I overcame those food battles at work. I am honestly not sure how, but I did it. The Cheetos were screaming at me... battling the Gardettos... and I kept myself from ordering Toppers.
After my 10-hour day at work, I headed to the gym and jumped on the elliptical in the cardio theater room. I noticed the movie was just starting so I was excited. I almost quit when I realized they were playing the exact same movie as yesterday (that I was already not interested in) but I stuck it out, and guess what?! I shaved 2.5 minutes off of my 2-mile elliptical trek. 2 miles in 22.5 minutes!!
Today was a good day. I want every day to be a good day.
I am at war with my mind. My body feels great day. My mind is so conflicted.
Dinner is planned - we are having a turkey burger and salad.
Today will remain a good day.
I can do this.
One day at a time.
One choice at a time.
Each moment of my life is a battle.
And I MUST win.