Pep talk/small goals for myself.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

BUT FIRST.....a photo update of the Delight Of My Heart:

The little twerp is coming up on seven months old! He's such a little sweet stinker.

The heaped-up stress of the last two years finally broke me last month. Culminated in some thoughts of self-harm or what my friend calls "leave here now dammit". I went to the doctor, got lined up for counselling (which I will probably bypass because it's so darned hard to get an appointment), got a Valium prescription for the times when my mind just won't let me be. (I would welcome any suggestions for things that might've worked for you personally when you've faced an emotional crisis.) Am now working on getting all my crap picked up and put back together, and the Big Girl Panties back on my sorry butt. I've had two months of 'eat ALL the foods....drink ALL the drinks' and very little gym time. I've begun to slouch again, which is not good. I feel old when I slouch, and I am not old.

So: some goals.

1.) Gym four times this week. I went this morning and had a good workout. Didn't stretch, and I will be feeling it tonight. But feeling it is's a sign I've done something for myself.

2.) Rein in the eating and drinking. I'm not going to restrict calories right now, I'm not in that mindset yet. Too easy to derail again and begin to feel like a failure and it's something I surely don't need!

3.) Be enthused. Husband encouraged me to start what I'd been talking up when we moved to this old nursery property. I've got tomatoes, herbs, rhubarb, garlic, potatoes, lettuce, onions and carrots started. Might be too cold yet but hey, I am doing it. I am also wishing there was more to do. I have about 20 minutes' worth of weeding and watering each morning and find myself looking for more. It's a good distraction.

4.) Get the darn fasting blood work done! My doctor sends me off once a year for fasting blood work. Normally it's not a big deal and I'm at the pathologist right away. I've put it off for a month now. I've even had a mammogram in that time which is less fun that bloodwork! I guess I dont' want to know what he might tell me even though I'm not expecting anything bad. Who knows. That's on track for tomorrow morning first thing. Why am I being so silly about it?
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    O! *hugs* I'm so glad you are back! *hugs* Don't you ever do anything to hurt yourself, sweetie. You are one of the most beautiful souls I know! *hugs* So glad to hear that you are refocused and setting some sound goals. Just take it one day at a time~ one meal at a time. Deep breathe! Practice meditation. I'm into Qigong and do this every day since I discovered it on the 18th.

    Take care of your sweet self and keep in touch. xoxoxoxoxo to that beautiful baby boy~ *hugs* BB~
    2181 days ago
    Rome wasn't built in a day.

    What a precious "twerp."
    2181 days ago
    What a handsome boy!

    I lost both of my parents within 3 months of each other and what helped me immensely was running, but walking will also help. It releases endorphins that help you feel better.

    So keep going to the gym or just take that beautiful boy for a walk. My first grandchild was born on Feb. 22nd and he is the light of my life. He has definitely brought me out of my funk. Being a grandma is the best.

    Hope you feel better!

    2181 days ago
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    The little twerp is so darling! If you need inspiration to stay healthy...he should be one of your reasons....but the first being that you feel better.

    Please stop stressing about working out...take the little guy for a walk...walking is the best exercise...and guess what?... walking can help with stress and is a good way to improve cardio fitness. Walking involves..quadriceps, hamstrings, buttock, stomach, and calf muscles. Kids love to walk and explore nature....he can be your pal and inspiration! Enjoy his curiosity and the beauty that God has given us. Inspect flowers, bugs etc on the way....he will appreciate nature more.

    Boil up some water in a tea pot and add salt and some vinegar, pour on your kills them instantly...easier to pull out the next day. That should keep you busy and moving....those additional steps will help.

    Every day get up look in the mirror and smile at yourself....start the day with positive thoughts....think about that darling child. Read him a is calming and not only will he will learn something new it is a special time for the two of you.

    Maybe read this may help you with the stress


    Life has it's up and downs...if we didn't have the downs then we couldn't appreciate the ups

    Hope you feel better soon! emoticon

    2181 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/29/2015 8:22:46 AM
    take it a bit at a time. I'm glad to hear from you. You even have to regulate time on Spark and not let it overwhelm you. So checking in when you can will be great but just don't give up. I'm a music listener when I have crisis. I also tend to exercise even if it's just walking and I listen to music. Haven't had an emotional crisis in my mid years so not sure these tools will still work. I know when I was younger I could shrug things off easier. But be patient and do the counselling.
    2181 days ago
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