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Saturday, June 20, 2015

‎Saturday, ‎20 ‎June, ‎2015

So today is the first day of my new start ,,, I have been feeling frustrated ,, I am still homebound and I have to rely on people to do my shopping and most of my cooking I cant cook yet ,, So I have decided to do something I can do ,, Im gonna take control ,, For now I am gonna have to get things I can do like look at healthy choice meals in walmart and make that my main stay and just make as many healthy choices and I can do ,, Its frustrating when you have to rely on people dont get me wrong I praise GOD for all the people who are here for me however they dont understand so many dont ,,, I listen to people all the time on here and I sooooo love you ,,, however if you have not been homebound or have issues that so limit you I know you do not understand ,,, My biggiest goal is just to be able to make the trip to see my sister who is in the nursing home and said to me the other day Im gonna die if you dont come see me :( ,,, I have to do this ,, I have to ,,, My second biggest goal is to help others ,, I never ever want anyone to be in this place ,, it has been at least 7 years or long since I have been in a bed ,, just to lay down oh how that will feel ,,, it has been at least 8 months since I left my house ,, that was to go to the doctor , i know in my heart I can not live like this I have to make changes and nobody will do this for me :) ,, I have to do all I can I cant wait to go swimming ,, my favorite ,, or sit in a park again ,, and watch people have fun or have fun , what is fun ,, let me see watching tv ,, going on sparks and reading .. helping people that is my fun ,, I praise God I am not where my sister is she is crippeled and all her life she relied on me ,, and im not there for her ,, yes I pray for her and talk to her on the phone but it has been so long since I went to see her ,, Now I want to encourage you as I encourage me ,, if you are breathing you have a purpose to be here still ,, I know mine and I have to make my goals ,, So I finally got my points for my sparks solution book and I joined the spark coach thing and now im gonna make changes not tommorow today lets do this ,,, lets make a difference ,,, I love you and I dont know if this will help you but I feel better ,,, :) its off my chest ... Have a awesome day love Betty
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    You can do this Betty with Gods help
    1317 days ago
    I love you Betty and I know you can do this. I have been praying for you and I know your faith. He will get you through this, He knows the desires of your heart and your needs. You are always so helpful and encouraging to others and we are all going to be here to do the same for you. Thank you for being so honest and sharing this so that we can be inspired as we watch you do this. I am right here rooting for you and I know you are strong enough to overcome anything in your path because I know He is where you get your strength from! Let's do this :) emoticon
    1369 days ago
  • KAYDE53
    emoticon Hang in there, the Lord will see you through!!
    1374 days ago
    emoticon Sometimes ' Being There' for your Family means that you put Yourself First so that you are able to take better care of your family.
    It sounds like you have a Great Plan in place to take Great Care of You AND Your Sister!
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Your Spark Family will be here, cheering you on!!
    1374 days ago
  • JAMER123
    Betty, I am so thrilled you are going to start taking care of yourself! We walk with you as well as God walks with you. He has been by my side for the year this year as we have had so much pain. You are hanging in there and I know you can take baby steps to make it out to see your sister. What a wonderful goal.
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    1374 days ago
    emoticon We are cheering you on! You have a wonderful heart!
    1374 days ago
    I am wishing you all the best in your quest for better health. You can do this!
    1374 days ago
    HUGS to you my dear. God bless you!
    1374 days ago
    You have courage and commitment to make changes that will get you seeing your sister again. I think it is absolutely wonderful and will pray that it happens sooner than you expect! emoticon
    1374 days ago
  • COOP9002
    You're doing great. We all have setbacks every now and again. Just remember how far you've come and how many people are rooting for you.
    1374 days ago
  • MRSP90X
    emoticon for me too!! I hear you and I feel for you. I'm an only child of an only child. It's lonely, so I will be praying that you will get to see your sister very soon!!! You CAN do it. I'm asking the Lord to help me with my eating.
    1374 days ago
    Hang in there! You know that we are rooting for you!
    1374 days ago
    emoticon You are right, I don't know what you are going through...I can only imagine. As bad as my situation was or is sometimes, it probably doesn't even come close to yours. Good for you for doing what you can to be healthier. Keep it up! Do your best everyday...can't ask for any more than that.
    1374 days ago
  • LSIG14
    Betty, I'm right along side of you! I want better for myself and I want to do for others. With God's help, we can do this! Hugs and prayers from Linda

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    1375 days ago
    To quote the great Winston Churchill:

    Never, never, never, never, never, never give up!

    Make today the greatest day of your life

    emoticon Until tomorrow!

    1375 days ago

    God HAS GIVEN you your purpose! And you are driven to move forward...
    Look at you go girl.... keep your chin up and your eyes focused on the PRIZE!
    March on for Jesus! I love this blog... you are human and we are all in a place of hurt sometimes... Jesus is our EVERYTHING! You will one day SLEEP IN YOUR BED! You will one day ENJOY YOUR FAVORITE THINGS!

    For now, JUST GO WITH GOD!

    1375 days ago
    Stay strong, you will make it through this Betty! You are a great woman and I am glad you are here and trying, never give up.
    1375 days ago
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